Feeling so blue with corrupted thoughts. During cg today, the whole passage left me with a great impact. The unspeakable joy right down in my heart.. though life is rather shitty, is still burning. What a faithful fren i've in Jesus. What a awesome God i've. What a humble King is He. And a loving Father to me. Dont know how to express my thoughts out.. i believe that God knows them all.
-sigh- Of all a sudden, i fear for my family members and frens. I fear that one day they would leave this world, without knowing God and accepting Him into their hearts. Rev. Chong did a made a point, the greatest comfort we can ever have is knowing that we will be going to Heaven when we die than any other places. Yeah? Sometimes i just felt like its some impossible mission to bring them to Christ. Perhaps becuz they are my closest, that's why that kind of anxiety is something which not many pple can express it out. This afternoon was a heartbreaking one for some pple. I cried softly while praying. Then i overheard Ethan asking his father some innocent qns. He asked "why the hole is so deep? that means we cannot see uncle again?" His dad just hugged him, without explaining anything to him. Given me, i think i wuld react the same way too. Then this verse struck me. "We need to be childlike to enter the Kingdom of God." - something like that.. cant really memorise the verse. Only then i realised that our minds are so corrupted by all the worldly things. And we seems to have lost that innocence and that lil child in us, all lost to the world. How i wish i can have that kind of innocence back into my life. Probably i wont be feeling so shitty and troubled in life. -sigh- Im just to tired of all these shit. All i want is Him and Him alone. I pray that He would renew that passion in me. Im hungry for You.
