He's already mine. =)

2008-02-02T01:01:00.000+08:00

=) Finally updating.

Earlier on, i was deciding to switching to wordpress.. but i couldnt seems to figure out its features. I just thought i wanna move on (away) from blogger. And now.. (drum roll) i've finally set up my new blog over at wordpress! haha. Took me more than a month to figure things out hor. Was especially challenging when im an IT noob. Blah~

I always emphasis the fact that this is my blog, my thoughts and my say. I never meant to blogged anything against anyone or anything. If you think i was unfair to whoever in my good old posts, do come and talk to me, alright?

Anyway, im not going to delete hyper-dreamer. Im gonna keep it for memory sake. It captured my thoughts, my feelings, my everyhing for the past 2 years. Every word means something to me. I will still once in awhile drop by and read my old old posts, for good times sake.

Now let me present you my NEW linkie :

http://thetrianglelove.wordpress.com =)

Before i end with my last post, i sincerely thank all of you, who stayed by hyper-dreamer's world.. sharing all her cares and woes.

Rmb to relink my bloggie and leave me a tag or comment alright.

LOVES!

2008-01-26T23:49:00.000+08:00

Smells bad. Very bad. Even tom the cat smells it and Peter the blind saw it. Will it end or will it not? I pray not. Because i love you.

2008-01-26T00:35:00.000+08:00

Only Daddy know what's going on for the past few days.. No one bothered. No one noticed. Only Him. I tried telling you, but you were either too busy with yourself or im too busy with my work. Nevermind. I thought tonight we'd get to chat a little before we sing our lungs out. I admit i was abit disappointed when you said you couldn't come over. And i really dont mean those words. Look at you.. using that hurtful tone on ME. Fine, i gladly take 'em. I know i shouldn't said those things in the first place.. but you ever stand in my shoe and think? You dont like me to push all my bad mood unto you, fine.

Know how it feels like when my heart aches? It pains even when i breathe. Ouch.

2008-01-23T23:38:00.000+08:00

Was away in school for the past 2 days. Had medical appointments and stuffs. Damn tired. Goodness, i think im in a bad shape. Really ought to do something before it gets worse. If not.. Bebe is going to nag again. Blah~

******

Sometimes i wonder..

If you ever encounter anyone who attempt to be nice to you, and stab you from behind. How does it feels like? Sounds so scary for me. Because you never know what's the person up to. So 怕怕。

I cant help but to acknowledge the fact that scary people do exist. They're scary because they do things all beneath a smile. They're simply too scary.!! EEE~ I dont need anyone to be doing all these for me, you can jolly well dont do it. In the first place, noone ask you to do them.

At least i never attempt to fake things out. Im always very true to my feelings. When i dont like, means i dont like. Nevermind if you say i fake to be nice to you or anyone. When i mean well, i mean it from the bottom of my heart. Unlike people who smile smile to you and poison you from behind.

Christians arent saints.

2008-01-20T23:19:00.000+08:00

Fuck.Whythespacingonmylastentryisn'tthere?
Damnitlah.Andiwasmerelytellingyouaboutit,
imnoteventryingtobeunreasonable.Damn.

2008-01-20T22:12:00.000+08:00

My emotions was riding on a roller coaster for the past 1 week. Only Heavenly Father will understand me. He know why when i cried softly to myself. He knows all my thoughts, right down to my darkest secrets that no one knew. -sigh-

Yes, im already feeling so so much better.

Saw this shirt at This Fashion, while waiting for Bebe. I thought it was damn funny, so i took a picture and send it to Justin. lols.

Went Chinatown in the afternoon, planning to get some new year atmosphere. It was still bright and sunny when i reach there. But it started to rain heavily when Bebe reached. So sad lah! Spoiler lor. Then went AMK Hub for window shopping, movie and dinner. Cloverfield doesnt make any sense to me. No ending de lor. Wth. Dinner was yummylicious! Goodness, it had been months ago since we ordered so much food man!

Goodness, i dint know my phone can take such a clear pic. lols.

We had satay, oyster omletter, yong tou foo, fish n' chips + a can of tiger beer! lols. So good lah! Bebe was nice enough to satisfy all my craving for these food. heh. That's because i've been bugging him with all my sudden food cravings. haha.

Actually i love food. Its just that i cant finish everything i ordered. Perhaps because of the years that i was not feeling well.. thus at times i do dislike food and eating. Yadah yadah.. And i always have sudden craving for food which pops out from nowhere. ah ha~

p/s: Bebe, 7 months! =D

2008-01-14T14:22:00.000+08:00

我很讨厌自己。我觉得我很没有用。什么都做不好。一点点小事都做不好。为什么我那么容易生病？
开始对我的生命感到厌倦。有没有人可以带我离开这个讨人厌的地方？
我很不开心。我不喜欢这里，更不喜欢那些批评我和我家人的乌龟s。就为什么没有人可以体谅我呢？
不要再逼我了啦。。我真的快倒了。
不想看到那些虚伪恶心的大便。你们就绕了我，不要再烦我好吗？

可能我太自卑了吧？

很累喔。。

父上帝，带我回家好吗？

2008-01-12T21:20:00.000+08:00

Bebe already left for his out field trip this morning. Woke up in the wee hours to sms. A simple msg means alot for both of us. At least, it's enough for me to kill time for the next few days. heh.

*******

I really detest the thought of her in my house. Alamka can you please go home? When they talked to you, doesn't mean that they dont have anything against you. Just that everyone is trying to fake it. But no way. Im very true towards my emotions. (That's why im always in deep shit) Dont give me the shit that your workplace is very far from your home. Okay, i understand that you need like 1 hour (?) to travel.. So am i hor. I take about 1hours 15 mins to school everyday lor. And i definitely sleep later than you do. Thought you should expect all these when you interview for the job? Crap. Sometimes i really feel sorry for you. Because of all the craps you go through. Im sure you dont deserve them. But since you choose him then thats it. At times i really dont mean to be rude, but.. ah whatever lah. Who cares if you're reading man.

=D Gotta run and fetch mummy from the airport !

2008-01-11T17:28:00.000+08:00

=D Ah ha its already friday! And for no reason i keep thinking that today is only thursday. zzz and i was trying to rush home and do the laundry. Because i thought i dint have uniform to wear. lols.

Oh.. mommy is coming home tml night! Yeahness lah! I heard that she brought a blanket for me. Sounds funny to me luh. Whatever. No wait, i cant imagine how much the cab fare would cost. Airport surcharge + midnight charge + recent increase of meter fare.. Faints lah~

Anyway, Bebe gonna be away for out field (again) for 4 long days tml. Boohoo~ I pray that he will be back safe and sound. Guess you guys cant imagine how i felt when he asked me to pray for him. C'mon darling, you've always been in my daily prayers alright? I really do hope that he would be able to experience God's love through his tough training sessions. Gotta pray for miracle uh? hmmm..

Im not sure why.. but im still not feeling good about e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g. Everything seems so dull. Can anyone tell me why? -sigh- Am still deciding whether to change my bloggie link. Does anyone bother to read anyway? Crap.

I think im fat.

blah~

2008-01-08T22:12:00.000+08:00

Freshies orientation finally over. Initially they were a fun bunch to to mix around with. Not until today.. i think i needa reconsider the statement. Yes, fun. But they're after all, young teenagers. Respect doesn't seems to be in them. -sigh-

=) Saw Shi ting and Shuo ke this morning. Good good.. heh.

Met up with Bebe this afternoon for movie, I am Legend. =) ichiban! lols. I held his hands tight, and scared him with my useless guts, throughout the movie! haha. If he could, i think he would want to wallop me up man. bleah~

I cried like thrice today?

First time was when i couldn't stand them laughing at her.. My heart broke.. Ouch.
Second time was during the movie, when Will Smith die in the movie..
Third time was on the train with Bebe. Of all a sudden 很舍不得他。我很担心他不会照顾自己呀。=( sobs.

Byebye to Bebe until 19 jan 08. boohoo~ misses!

2008-01-07T21:44:00.000+08:00

Freshies orientation.

Dint slept very well last night. Was busy tossing and turning, hoping for my phone to ring. Well actually it did. It was from this XX friend, who smsed me "happy new year.." at 3+am. I so want to take my shoe and throw at him. And i eventually gave up and woke up at 5.30am to daze. urgh~

I guess it must be me, away from school (mc + holidays) for too long. Thus this morning, i was abit lost when i saw the crowd. I thought the usual 7am crowd was bad enough. But when i took train today at 6.30am, the crowd was terrible + horrible + vegetable. lols. All damn kiasu. Only want to stand near the door, alight fast fast. wth

My new class is still doing fine.. But at the rate im going, i probably gonna lose my voice. lols.

Oh i went to the doctor already. =) Nothing much lah, just the usual case. heh.

2008-01-04T21:22:00.000+08:00

No idea what went wrong.. Im just feeling so emotional. I need a rant. Its only begining of the year, and im feeling so restless about

E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G.

I dont want school. I dont want my routine household chores, when noone bothers. I dont want to cook. I dont want last minute dates. I dont want last mintue works. I dont my ugly mess.

I want nuts.

Call me lazy or mad. I dont care. Stop asking me why am i like that. I am like that, what can you do? Stop pin pointing fingers at whoever you think are at fault.

Why bother to ask how am i doing only when im down, when all you care is yourself and your own life. WTF.

I think in either ways, i suck.

Where were you when i fell?

2008-01-03T23:06:00.000+08:00

Goodness. School gonna start and i've yet to work brush up on my work. Im so going to drop dead man. And i just received an order to sleep early, starting from tonight. Wth. Well.. if time allows, we shall see how lah. Bleah~

Oh oh my new year resolutions! Well after much personal recap, i think 07 was huge leap. But nope, im not going to dwell in it. I wanna move on. Everyone should, right? lols.

1) A better daughter, sister, girlfriend, student, friend.

2) Time management!

3) Adpot a healthier lifestyle (?)

4) NO weight gaining, please.

Alright, not too much at a time. Im afraid i wont be able achive them all.. Then on 31.12.08, you will hear me complaining again. lols.

As and when you think i havent been doing much about them, please slap me lightly on my back. haha.

2008-01-01T23:30:00.000+08:00

Happy new year!

Gonna start the year right man. Ah ha time for serious work..

=) pple, have a blessed year ahead.

Oh, that passerby might possibly be one of his jealous fans. That's why.. Blah~

2007-12-31T13:00:00.000+08:00

Last entry of the year..

before we step into 2008..

Actually i've got nuts to blog about.. i merely want the date on my entry lah. lols. Alright, say farewell to 2007 as we embrace ourselves for the new year. Rmb to leave all your '07 baggages behind! =D

2007-12-30T23:31:00.000+08:00

In my opinion...

Should your boyfriend or girlfriend gets mad at you in the public for whatever reasons.. I THINK, neither each party should use any offensive language to display your unhappiness towards each other, esp in front of your friends. I understand that sometimes in the heat of the moment, you just need a right word to describe your feelings.. but say NO to those offensive languages yah? Yes, you might not mean it. But its often words like these that hurts most. What more when its in front of your friends or his friends. Like oh my goodness right? lols. Well.. if you ask me what would i do if i ever did that on my boyfriend.. Hmmm i would simply wait till i cool down and apologise to my boyfriend and his friends, in front of his friends. By doing so, is only showing due respect for him. If someone ever question but why apologise to his friends too.. My point is, at least they know i dint mean it on purpose and i acknowledege the fact that i did a thing like that.. Perhaps you might think its not necessary, but you never know what wonders it brings.

Just allow me to quote my imagnative example:

Boyfriend and girlfriend are mad at each other and refuse to give in.. Girlfriend said something nonsensical and boyfriend's blood boils.. And start to hurl ugly words to his friends about the issue. Although eventually they made up.. but ever come across your mind that the hurt is already there?
What if your friends remembers the incident and everytime they see your girlfriend/boyfriend, they just remind themselves of the issue again? Surely they might minus marks right?
Yes, you might say a relationship is something personal and is only between you two.. but not when it becomes a topic for others.

Ah.. i was just trying to come up with a scenario for my topic. It was purely random thoughts of mine and its all about my opinion. Boohoo~

********************************************************

HJJ is a bully leh! He always pick on vunerable people like me to bully. Very horrible right? lols.
HJJ The Countdown begins says:
u wont even get to share the leftovers

suck thumb - so be it. says:
ah pls

suck thumb - so be it. says:
im not the least bit of interested with ur leftovers

suck thumb - so be it. says:
blah

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
ah then good

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
dont share lor ahaha

suck thumb - so be it. says:
humph

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
u not interested wad

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
good

suck thumb - so be it. says:
u horiible

suck thumb - so be it. says:
horrible*

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
ya, u dont know meh?

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
wahahahah

suck thumb - so be it. says:
haha

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
~HAHA

suck thumb - so be it. says:
HUMPH

suck thumb - so be it. says:
u bully!

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
yeah

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
u poor victim

suck thumb - so be it. says:
haha

suck thumb - so be it. says:
let me post it on my blog

suck thumb - so be it. says:
lols

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
....

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
good good

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
post let the whole world see

suck thumb - so be it. says:
yes lah, i make sure the whole world knows!

suck thumb - so be it. says:
lols

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
good

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
faster go and post now

-_-" Oh, he's not my boyfriend. He's currently happily attached to another happy-go-lucky-gurl. haha.

p/s: my boyfriend is definitely not as mean as him lor. lols.

2007-12-28T18:16:00.000+08:00

Ever tried staying awake the whole night, just to wait for some one's sms? I did. Call me dumb or anything. But i really did. Fancy to stay awake the night, waiting for his sms and sob a lil 6+ in the morning. I wished i had just given him a call man. urgh~ =) Nvm, we gonna sms call and meet again on 31st Dec.

Damn. My blood must be super sweet.. I got like 5 kisses from some ugly mosquitoes. Faints~

Phone gonna be dead quiet for the next 3 days. -sigh-

2007-12-27T20:58:00.000+08:00

Couldnt get any quality rest ysd night. Was tossing and turning on my snoopy bed, hugging my marshmellow poohie. Was so bad that i smsed him, even though i know he wont reply till this morning.. My mind was in a total blank. Perhaps only God knows.

Pratically dragged myself out of bed this morning when the alarm went off. I even steal some time for mac breakfast, alone. The bus journey seems to take forever. And i was goodly late for 35mins? Whatever. 30 mins for registration, 30 mins for doctor availabilty, 10 mins in the room, 30mins for urine test, 30mins for payment. Like WOW! !@#$ But doctor dint say much. Only asked me to be back for appointment and scan in 1 month's time. How effective uh? Im still not feeling good. Something is so wrong.. urgh~

Enough blogging abt that horrible person in my life. He dont deserve to be mentioned on my blog! Blah~

Oh a tiny winy lizard(!) just fell from the celling, onto your's truly arm. WTH man. This freaky lizard must be dont know how to write die (direct translation to chinese). lols. Yupp yupp.. i shake it off my arm and step it with my mama's home slippers. And its on its back, struggling.. Must use +dettol disinfectant to scrub my arm man. bleah~

-sigh- misses!

2007-12-26T21:50:00.000+08:00

Feeling so miserable. Spending too much time at home, alone, is bad for physical and mental health. Because you tend to think way too much.. And how come my brain doesnt work that well during exams or projects? It always focusing way too much on negaitve things. Like everything gonna happen for a bad cause. Something is so wrong uh?

I think there's something very wrong with myself.. I cant seems to find that tad bit of self confidence. Im feeling way too lousy abt myself. I wonder if im still capable of handling things assigned to me.

MDIS Eunos campus called this afternoon, and ask me to go for a interview tml. I dint even register myself or aything. How on earth will others know im looking for a part time? Is it God's work? Perhaps..

Tml im gg to the doctor. And tml he's gg for a 4 day outfield trip. Mama not in sg. Hopefully my sister will be willing to go with me. I dont know what to expect at the clinic..

Daddy, wont You give me that courage to face it?

Can you sense that kind of fear in me? I wish i can escape..

2007-12-25T22:52:00.000+08:00

=D MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Let us all bear in mind that we're celebrating Christmas all because of Jesus Christ!

Ah the joy of giving.. SUPER. I love those presents. ;D

Have a blessed Christmas.

loves!

2007-12-22T21:31:00.000+08:00

Not fair.

I like, i buy. You wear, spoil = dont need to pay.

You ask, i buy. Lost = dont need to pay.

You ask, i lend. Not happy = dont need to pay.

I like, i buy. You like, you took it = dont need to pay.

Your shit, we clear. Not happy = dont pay up and still expect us to con't clear your shit.

I talked, you forget = my fault.

I not happy, i shout = unreasonable.

wtf is wrong with everyone?

2007-12-22T01:12:00.000+08:00

Friend, it's okay.

No more sweet whisperings, only words that hurts.

Then be it lor.

Cheers alright?

2007-12-21T02:52:00.000+08:00

("v") 6 months!

=D im an extremely happy gurl.

2007-12-18T20:43:00.000+08:00

Matthew 6:34 (NIV)
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

2007-12-17T22:43:00.000+08:00

Tired of everything. Feeling so lost, cold and lonely. I only want to rest in His strong loving arms. Can?

Im scared.

I worry for my health. I hope red light is not on yet.

I worry that *he's up to something naughty..

I worry that *she really need to undergo a surgery..

I worry that *she's not getting enough rest..

I worry that my savings might not meet the month's end..

I worry that i cant complete my project nicely on time.

I worry that i cant cope with everything that's happening.

I dont like all these shit.

Why must i bother to make those ugly calls when you dont even bother. Why must we think of how to clear up your shit when you dont even care. You bloody think we really owe it to you? Yeah, dream on okay.

You. You forgot my chocolates and my hugs. :(

All i want for Christmas is :

TLC,
hugs,
kisses,
chocolates,
poohs,
and more hugs ..

2007-12-14T21:52:00.000+08:00

Tired of waiting..

2007-12-13T15:47:00.000+08:00

Tired~ The pain is simply too horrible for me to bear. I cant even stand for long, let alone to walk for a few minutes without anyone to hold on. Painkillers aren't working that good for me. It is always giving me severe gastric pain. Sometimes i thought im gg to drop dead any moment.

Daddy, wont You take the pain away? *cries*

Random thoughts:

5 or 10 years down the road, i doubt i can be that someone successful; which i always dream of. All because of pple like you and you. I feel so embarrassed to even acknowledge you. You're a man of no backbones, irresponsible, not trusthworthy .. you're everything anyone can say. Noone feels good to put someone down on purpose, with anger jealousy or hatred. But it seems like you're always proving others right. I dont mean to.. but sorry to say, this is the kind of impression you gave me. Im afraid you dont deserve that kind of trust and help from us. On second thought, if we dont then who will? What more do you expect?

2007-12-11T20:46:00.000+08:00

Thanks to Jo, for helping out with the skin. I think im rather helpless with changing my blogskins recently. lols.

Yes, i used this skin sometime ago.. I simply like it okay.

Yes, i guess right now what i need most is strength to carry on with the battle. I wish i have more courage to face it. The pain is simply unbearable. I hope i wont die of losing excessive --- .

And yes, i wish i have the courage to let you go.. but

Daddy, cant You hear my cries?

2007-12-10T23:11:00.000+08:00

Went to the doctor this morning. No verdict out yet. Just tablets and more tablets to pop in. Well.. pray its not something bad. U'know i feel so stressed up with the whole issue. Not only to worry for my health, but im scared that i will face all this shit alone.
Ah no point for me to whine about it here.

Though you said you wont leave me.. but still im scared. Im afraid that i will have to go through this shit alone. You sense that kind of fear in me?

2007-12-09T18:47:00.000+08:00

Random -- I hate RED!

I've got no choice. Whenever situations like this pops out.. i seems to lose my capabilty to speak my mind out. Perhaps its only through this channel, then i can communicate better with you. Sounds so lan uh?

U'know, first look from you.. i already read your mind. Yes, i can understand that kind of fear in you. So do i sense the fear okay. I know you're as worried as i am (pls dont prove me wrong). Worse was when your eyes speaks to my heart. Like if its a bad thing, you gonna leave me for sure. Did anyone ever tell your that your eyes can speak? If dont, let me be the first.

And i asked you thrice before i walked out of the room. I ask if you were scared? You dint even bother to lift your head up and look at me, like you always do. Perhaps my qns was really indeed hard to answer at the moment or you're simply trying to avoid my eyes. Be it. I choose to think that i was unreasonable wretch, forcing you to answer my qns - if that makes you feel any better.

Yet you asked me what's on mind.. Yadah yadah.. that moment i really thought i would have the courage and walked out of your sight. You ought to know better than anyone else that i was scared that you would dump me for sure. Though you said you wont.. but your eyes seems to be telling a different story. Trust me, im a gurl. I dont lie.

Promises? Dont ask why i dint managed to honour it (neither did i break it). Ask yourself. You did? I hate it when you say you dont know what's on my mind. C'mon.. for so long already and that's what you can say? That really upsets me. Not that you're not good enough.. but dont you find it abit ridiculous? And then you will say i never allow you to step into my world even though you tried to. Tried hard enough?

I really wonder.. just is it me or you, whose too hard to catch?

Im sorry but i dont mean to sound bad. I was merely typing things out.

2007-12-09T02:04:00.000+08:00

Weekends.. but everything went haywired.

Rest and recovered from thursday's incident. Ah she's not to be blamed. I was at fault for not printing my budget list out.

Missed school on friday. But that didnt stop me from going for my (!) first pubbing session. lols. And NO, i dint fake my illness on thusday okay. Was quite reluctant to go along in the first place. Because i was afraid that it might be a too troublesome for him to send me home later.. Anyway i gave in lah, so just went for it. =D
Went to Music Heritage with the group. Felt abit out of place lah.. Dont ask me why but yadah yadah. Not sure what made me so hyper active that night, though i dint drink much. I guess its the people there uh? Initially i was rather shy to play games with them or even to sing openly. Must be the Chivas.. lols.
Hmmm.. there will definitely more of such activities to come. heh.

I burned my saturday doing something i thought it was worth my time, even when im having a really bad gastric pain.. I dint complained or grumble about anything. But it seems like im still not understanding enough. Am i supposed to run after you and plead you to forget about it? Im not trying to be mean.. but it seems like its all my fault. You did it straight in my face and right down into my heart.. my fault to cause your uproar?

Why not you tell me what more do you want from me?

2007-12-05T23:54:00.000+08:00

Boy. Its already December. Time not only flies, it runs! lols. Looking back.. i wonder what have i been doing and did i really achieved my goals..

Earlier this year, i was still a Nitec student, doing Office skills. Now im a Higher Nitec student, doing Event Management. Ah ha to me, it was a big leap. Nevertheless, im not the same gurl whom you know. We all grow as time passes by. Im not sure if i've grown to stronger or worse than before. I only know without Him, im just a lump of mouldy mud. Since young, i already understood why God place rocks along our way. It only like this, then can we learn.
Like Friend said: all things happen for a reason. But what's the reason behind it all? My ans: ask God. And in time to come, you will know why even without Him telling you.

What about you? What have you done for the past 11 months?

2007-12-04T22:29:00.000+08:00

Im suppose to work on my EPL project for submission tml. But but i cant seems to concentrate on my work. Besides feeling restless.. i've got no clues what to add in for my proposal. Of all a sudden im feeling so emo. I so wanna cry.. Damn what's wrong with me man? Someone slap me on my forehead can? Boo hoo~

These 2 days my phone is so so quiet.

When will he be back? Im alr missing him loads!!

2007-12-03T21:30:00.000+08:00

In serious sleep debt. Cant wait to pay off all my debts when holiday comes. I can simply fall asleep within the snap of fingers.
Projects, day dreaming, endless chit chat sessions with mama and retail therapy treatments are the main culprits. Excluding all the other acomplice.

Ah whatever.

Feels weird to talk to him after so long.. The draggy cold war has also put quite a number of them into a difficult position. -sigh- As if i like all these shit. If only he buck up.. hmmm it probably wont happen.

Anw, im feeling super fed up with him. Cant believe that i actually know such a bloody basket , who have got a foul mouth like the rubbish dump. I doubt he even got a pea brain okay. If only you heard what he said to me.. Bet your blood will boil too. !@#$%

Oh when will payday come?

Boo~ loads of misses.. Cant wait till weekend comes!

2007-12-02T01:15:00.000+08:00

=) Marketing project down. Only left marketing presentation, BZC presentation & EPL project on hand. Still got quite alot hor? Sians.

Had a great day out. Went to take (!) neoprints, shopping, dinner then movie. heh. Had quite a number of first time today. Mind you, all healthy ones okay.

But we dint had a happy ending.. Just a sentence and we fall into it.

It was all about trusting and caring for one another. -sigh-

What's next?

*cries*

Perhaps we dint had had a great day afterall.

2007-11-28T22:43:00.000+08:00

SUPER TIRED

Projects, will you stop haunting me? Wont you pls let me off? You're killing zillions of my brain cells every minute, causing me to lose all precious time for slp, and leaving me no time for myself. Why me alone?

I HATE YOU LOADS.

humph.

Im a grumpy gurl.

2007-11-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

Sunday love.

:) Feels good to be back in God's house after so long. Recharge and feeling fresh after worship. Of cuz it does lead me to some Q&A session with God. He should be my reason why im breathing for, not anyone else neither is it anything. If anything or anyone is my king, then God shall be the King of all other kings. Sounds chim.. Nvm.

Actually im pretty bothered abt it. I understand that i cannot do anything to change their thoughts towards my behaviour/life/actions. If that is how you wanna think abt me, then be it lor. I wont jump out to explain unless i think its simply ridiculous.. If you know me, you will know how am i like. So no point explaining too much. But i just cant believed that you actually said that.. Oh well.

And you. You can jolly well think i like to starve myself to hunger to lose weight.. Whatever. I didnt shed those kilos on purpose okay.

2007-11-21T17:29:00.000+08:00

I miss talking to Him. For the past 1 month, i havent been chatting much with Him. Its either im too tired or im too busy to do so. U'know when it comes to situations like this.. pple tends to have 1001 reasons to defend themselves. Ah.. just pure excuses. Though i stood Him up for countless times, He's always there, faithfully waiting for me. His door never closes. Yet i just put my work and others before Him. I guess i really hurted Him alot. Dad, im sorry okay? Just last night before i slept.. we had a long chat before i doze off. I like talking to him becuz i know my little secrets are safe with Him. Moreover, only Him, can give me the best advice. Only with Him around then will i make lesser wrong choice. I miss His warm tender loving cuddles. I miss Him so much.. And im really thankful for Him in my life. Dad, i really love You loads okay? =)

He's definitely my reason why im smiling now.
Praise God, yah?

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Terminal 3 -Part2-

This is how i keep myself entertained. =D

Another expensive sofa in the Transit holding Mall, from Italy. Price $XXXX

Daily Essentials

POWDER ROOM!

-_-" I was forced to take this pic with Ros

Simply too bored~

Everyone's best friend

Sunnies on the last day! =D

"Row 5 to police post. Is lunch here already? Roger" - Random

2007-11-19T21:50:00.000+08:00

Boo hoo~ i still cant gain access to my picture folder. wth man. Thank goodness i still got another backup copy. If not.. you'll c wad i will do to *you.

BLAH x3

Anw, helped out at Si Ying's stall today. =D Managed to sold all the little handicrafts. I stood down there like a mad gurl, talking non stop since 11am till 4pm? & a bowl of yummy laksa was worth all the talkings. lols. At this rate im gg.. i think im gg to lose my voice pretty soon! lalala~

If my gurl allows, then i shall upload pictures of her handicrafts here. heh.

No more bitterness.. =) Only sweet sweet whisperings.

2007-11-18T15:07:00.000+08:00

FUCK. Why i cant i access to my pictures folder? Damn it. Its all mine stuffs yet my access to it is denied? What a joke.

Im so gg to find SOMEONE to hack into bits.

If you dun have the ability to pay up, then MYOB. Stop trying to be funny with my stuffs. That will only make me feel like throwing you out of the window, like a dirty tissue.

You !@#$%

Just an hour ago, i was still feeling so miserable abt myself. Now.. im freaking angry.

* my blood is boiling - entry typed on my current temper.

2007-11-18T14:21:00.000+08:00

Current status: Physically sick, mentally tired = pathetic gurl.

Missed church today. Went to my family doctor instead. He was damn nice to gave me 4 different types of tablets to pop in after my meals. Aren't he sweet? heh.

Perhaps its my health, thus im having all those itchy bitchy mood swings.

Im being unreasonable the whole time.

My eyes gets watery for everything thing he said or do.

Im gg to explode soon. REAL SOON.

I know you cared for me. All the things you said was for my good. But you dun seems to get my point. Ever thought i dint want to hear all these from you? Esp you..

During my sec 5 days when i studied F&N, the book says a person tends to feel insecure when he/she is in hunger. Right now, even though i just had my lunch.. im still feeling insecure. Dun ask me why. But that's just how i feel inside. And you never realise it..

Go home? I never like to be at home alone with that 2 creeps. I hate it. How could a patient ever take a good rest when she dun feel safe with the surrounding? I know at times im very demanding.. I dun bother to explain alot of my thoughts.. Becuz i thought you would understand. So many months yet, we dun seems to able to read each others mind. Not even a slightest thought. I feel so lousy. At times, i wonder how much i weight in your heart.

No, im not trying to put you down. Neither am i trying to say you're not good enough. To me, you're simply wonderful. Perhaps im too demanding and bitchy for you or anyone to understand.. Nope, im not gg to blame you for it..

I doubt if you will get to read this entry, but its okay. If anyone of you happens to know who is he, pls let him know okay?

2007-11-17T00:06:00.000+08:00

TERMINAL 3 -Part 1-

Airbus A380

NEWater(s)

Row 5 Ticketing Crews, Ayin & I

Me, Ayin & Adrian

Ros & Ayin

STICKERS

Pretty Ticketing Crews

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What a week..

Super tired man. School, projects, work, home ... im sick and tired of all these shit. I feel so no life.

Ah, just experiencing some horrible mood swings.

Im not sure if he was playing with me when he did it. But im really angry with his stupid act. And of cuz, it did caused some uproar among them. I know they cared and simply worried that he will try to be funny with me again.. =) But but im fine now, okay?

I just dun want anything to happen you okay?

2007-11-12T20:47:00.000+08:00

Feels so weird to be back in school after so many days at terminal 3. heh. First day back to school, already late for lessons liao. wth. Not my fault okay. The gates was closed way before 8am. End up, only a handful of pathetic kittens was there for assembly. lols. Should have taken a picture of it man.

blah x3

Having a hard time to concentrate during EPL too. My eyes had a hard time fighting against the gravity. heh.

Overall, it feels good to be back with my friends again. I know they miss me loads. haha.

Managed attend 2nd service ysd. And Darrell, my shuai ge, was there too! ah ha~

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=) I promise i will love you more each day, no lesser than ysd.

2007-11-09T13:55:00.000+08:00

They just dont seem to understand my fear for bicycles. Esp when they're riding one. I always make the effort to tell everyone i know (and i cared for) to be extra careful on the road while riding that no license vehicle. Many times, they just replied yes or would simply laugh it off. But why? I really care okay. I dont say that because i've got nothing better to do.. Because i really care..

I understand that the incident was afew years ago.. but so what? You mean it wont happen again? You know, almost everyday a cyclist is being knocked down.. You gonna be dead sure it wont happen to *you?

I cried because im scared.Im really scared that it will happen again. No matter how excellent is your skills.. accidents can still happen okay?

I dont wanna lose anymore. In fact, i cant afford to lose anyone, esp *you.

That incident will always live in my memories.. ..

2007-11-08T23:41:00.000+08:00

Little Miss Brave

From today onwards, im gonna stand strong to face the world. Im not going to let my past to be my hinderance to my better future. I will just have to learn how to better control my emotions, in the hard way

Im not going to let *YOU or *YOU to hold me back and ruin my future. I've got a beautiful world ahead. In time to come, *YOU will know that *YOU failed terribly and will be as miserable as a peanut.

Few years down the road, people will come to know me as the capable gurl whom they know.

My Almighty Father has already won the battle.

The victory is already MINE.

Im FREE from all *YOUR nonsense, forever.

=) Im not going to let any one of you down okay.

Blah x3

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I promise i will never say such a thing anymore. I promise i will be a good gurl and will never upset you okay?

2007-11-06T22:57:00.000+08:00

Im so tired of waiting for pple who promise to call but they always (most of the time) fail to do so.

Im so tired of waiting for pple who promise to sms but they always (most of the time) fail to do so.

What's wrong with them?

24hrs a day and you can only spare me 1min 10secs? ( in random)

How pathetic.

I understand the other party might be busy at the moment, cant you just sms me to let me know? Type one msg very mafan meh?

Whatever.

Counting down afew more days before my work at t3 calls for a break. I love working there lah. Its so fun can? We had endless chit chat sessions among ourselves and cam-whore times! lols. Wait till they send me the pics, so i can upload 'em. heh.

Gotta hit my bed soon..

("v") Nighty nights darlings.

2007-11-05T22:24:00.000+08:00

things and thoughts

I miss gg for movies..
I miss shopping..
I miss hugs..
I miss my long hours of slp..
I miss chatting with ..
I miss being in my own world..
I miss baking..
I miss my good old voice..
I miss my cow..
I miss pple who cares..
I miss HK..
I miss the times when we did things tgt..
I miss pig out sessions with him n them..
I miss my kids..
I miss singing..
I miss handicrafts sessions..
I miss receiving presents.. (so random)

I miss ..

Im a greedy gurl..

So screwed up. Okay, guess i needa clear things up.. I know i blogged abt her being rude to my mama n me.. but i realise that all the while she have always been the one protecting us. She made those calls that none of us would want to call, scolds pple whom we cant dun even bother to talk to (for our sake) n so many more. Im sorry to say all those abt her okay.

-sigh-

Sometimes i really wonder if its true. Though we rmb the slightest details on how it started.. but it seems a lil too fast uh? Of cuz i dun mean i wanna back out.. im just hoping for the best. I believe if we put in our effort, something fruitful will come out of it. God willing okay?

2007-11-04T21:12:00.000+08:00

=) Im coughing so badly until i lost my voice. lols. I guess i was talking way too much eh? heh. Working at t3 is fun fun fun. I like the rush when the tours come tgt at the same time, assigning guides, giving out stickers, etc. So bian tai right? lols. When all the tour grps come tgt, that will also mean.. we must have sufficient guides ard.. if not they will have to wait till another one comes back.

dots.

Weekends at t3 is so quiet. Only afew hundreds of pple came. Quite depressing eh? lols. But that will also means getting to go home earlier n more time to slack ard! haha.

I like listening to Uncle Tommy when he talks. He's very knowledgeable and have got so many stories to share! Be it political, different religions, old time stories, history, Christianity, etc, he definitely got alot to talk abt man. Of cuz i do like to hear frm others.. but Uncle Tommy top the list okay? lols.

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I miss gg to church. It feels so weird to miss service for so long. I wonder if anyone notice that i aren't ard..

Nevermind.

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That 2 creeps is simply too much man. I so wanna smack them with my slippers. Sooner or later, i will sure explode and !@#$% n they will be so ashame of their deeds and themselves.

BLAH x3

2007-11-02T23:16:00.000+08:00

Anger Management

(I think) she's freaking dumb when she said all those senseless things abt me and him. Okay, i was talking (nagging) to her for being so selfish, for not wanting to go down with mama to 7-11. And there she go.. talking about all those nonsense. Super crap lor. If you simply cant out-talk me, then just shut up. If not it really looks retarded on you. Such a ****** bitch.

Call me one, and i will tell you IM THE BITCH, NOT A BITCH.

C'mon go look into the damn mirror, and freaking think before you say all those rubbish. Yupp yupp.. you may say : since whatever she said was untrue rubbish and sujective comments, why should i bother in the first place?

HELLO. Im now super fed up is because she's so brainless despite her age.

I so wanna stuff my father's smelly socks right into her mouth.

I will do so.. probably in my dreams.

Whatever okay. Im just super pissed.

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Damn. I realise that recently i've been blogging so much on my dislike-ness towards people around me. But the 2 persons i mentioned earlier on (previous entries) deserve it. I mean.. i really dislike them. If its over some tiny winy matters, i can close one eye. Nah, they're simply too much for anyone to tolerate. For the one i just mentioned.. maybe not that much afterall. i merely need to blog them out, before i go mad. Just a moment of anger, i guess?

I desperately want a shoulder to lean on and rest.
=( Can i?

2007-10-30T20:50:00.000+08:00

Been having problems waking up early for school the last 2 days.. All thanks to him man.

Anw tml gonna start my work at Changi airport terminal 3 le. I will most prob slp on the train frm Chinese Garden to Tanah Merah - Airport.

Sians.

Last night i was really pissed off with him. I really felt like chopping him up man. Second thought, he's not worth my time and effort. Dun wanna dirty my hands or ruin my nicely manicure nails either. Not only did he hang up my call, so is he a wimp to face the music. And he dare shout at her that it wasn't entirely his fault. Yah right, not his fault then all mine lah.

What an asshole.

And he dint dare to come home until the wee hours. This morning i think he must be damn scare that's y he die die went to work.

Shame on him.

I cant imagine what will happen after thursday.

I pray that God will keep us all safe.

-tired-

2007-10-28T21:21:00.000+08:00

T3's opening preview finally over.. Next one shld starts on wed.. *sians* That means i gotta wake up a lil more earlier than usual, just to travel. Thank goodness i got Ah Wing to tk train with me. heh.

These 2 days, i encounter quite a number (alot) of typical *pple*. Some r so blind to understand " ONE TIME ENTRY " phrase. Some ask what is the chair made of? Is it made in China or Taiwan?

blah x3

Super dumb lor.

There's one customer lagi super.. "Singaporeans r greedy pple, but im proud to b a Singaporean.".

Oh, i sat on the $850 chair n took picture with it hor! lols. Shall upload n share with u guys.. heh.

tadah!

=( Saw my eye bag?

According to them, 1 chair costs $850. So the whole row of chairs (5) wuld cost $4250.
*ahem*

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I wonder if its over.. I pray not. Im a very greedy gurl.. I want it to last forever. Can? Nth much to reconsider le.. we're alr one.

N im pretty (dead) sure that boy once did feel something more than a friend for gurl.

But its over.

2007-10-26T15:39:00.001+08:00

I cant understand wth is he thinking. So old yet so childish. Worse, he's selfish, arrogrant, shameless, etc, anything u can think of to describe him.

HELLO. Cant u just think before u say? Its makes u look so stupid and brainless when u said those things to me. C'mon grow up n think with ur pea brain. If i can foresee situations like that, y cant u?

U gave us all these shit n all u could say to us was : ur problem lor.

FUCK.

Noone have any duty or is responsible for ur shits. We dun live ur life, neither do we need u to live our lives. Related doesn't mean i (we) ought to do everything for u.

U only know how to enjoy ur life by giving us headaches and *shaking all day long.

So u think only u can enjoy life huh? Sorry okay, so can WE. If that's the way u want us to treat u, just say lah. Im more than willing to dump all ur shits back to u n we're no longer related in any ways. Sounds attractive uh?

I dun want to look down on u. I also wish to have someone to look up to.. But u think u're capable? For thousand times, u've been saying that u dint mean it n u will change..

blah x3

Bet u dint know the times when i really broke down just becuz of what u said eh? I really did cried for u.. Becuz i cant understand what causes u to think in such a way.. So irresponsible. Im not trying to say that im very noble.. but at least i care for people around me. I bother to clear up my own mess (if any) n s far s im concern, i try not to say those harsh words to people i truly love n care for.

Look at urself before u speak.. u still worthy of my respect?

Words r so cheap.

2007-10-25T23:51:00.000+08:00

Okay.. gonna be really busy for the next 2 weeks.

Allow me to list out my following plans, starting from this saturday..

Saturday & Sunday (27.10.07 & 28.10.07)
8am-6pm : T3 family day

Monday 29.10.07
Site visit to T3 at 4pm, to prepare for wed.

31.10.07 - 10.11.07
T3 opening event, 8.30am - 6.30pm

11.11.07 Monday
School as usual (gotta wake up at 6am hor)

ZZZ

Which means im gonna miss church for 3 consecutive weeks.
*cries*
Though i know my churchmates wont miss me, but i miss my lil kids hor! =(
I hope they wont forget me..
lols.

Working at T3 will also mean the following..
- no weekends for my love(s)
- lesser time for myself
- great learning experience
- opportunities to meet many VIPs, which i might not get to meet in life..
- blah x3

-sigh-

2007-10-24T18:28:00.000+08:00

If you happen not to know..

I made it for the interview! =D Will officially start work my "attachment" next week. I've yet to perpare myself mentally for it.. like abit too fast eh? Gotta work 11 days straight from 8.30am to 6.30pm. monday to sunday. Sounds taxing eh? Heh.

Anyway, im among the first 10 to go for it hor.
lols.
bleah~

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Im planning to take a break from my current job. I understand that when we come out to work, we cant choose the kind of people to work with.. And we're all to accept each others flaws, just like how they accept me as who i am. I think i need some (alot) of self-reflection and consider if im still suitable for the job.

-sigh-

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Im still sick.. Still coughing like mad.. =( I hate it man.

No cold, cooling or spicy food/drinks for the next two weeks.

Faints~

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Daddy: Im sorry for all that i've done. Yes, i've crossed the line. And You must be really upset with me and my deeds. Please forgive me. I promise we'll work together for a better future, in Your way and in Your time. Please, dont give up on him.. I really love both of You.. Please continue to hear our prayers. Thank You Dad.

2007-10-20T16:12:00.000+08:00

I really dont like her*. Not that im being bias or jealous of her.. but i simply dont like her.

Yes im glad that she sort-of introduced me to my current job, and i made a couple of good friends there.. but that doesn't mean she can do whatever she wants here. Perhaps its not all her fault, he is to be blame too.. but no no. You people have crossed the line and that's it. Im not going to tolerate all these shit.

Get that into your mouldy brain : this is my home, that's my (our) room. Im more than happy if you can stop (not so often) coming to my place. You're much disturbing our peace at home and causing me to go mad at you.

Actually im not that willing to waste so much brain cells on you, but look at yourself and him.. WTH are you people doing man?

**speechless**

Ah.. i just dont like her.

2007-10-18T21:28:00.000+08:00

Super long entry

Goodness gracious me..

Despite the fact that i only slept for 4hrs last night, im still manage to stay awake since 6am this morning.. Power eh? heh. If this continues.. i bet your beloved ME, will faint on the streets soon.

Pardon me if im not making sense.

I just want to blog a super long entry, to satisfy my blogging thirst. =P

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Yes, it started out for both guy and gurl months ago. Psst! Coming 4 months man! Isn't it great for both? lols. Although there are still many areas for them to work on.. but im dead sure things will iron out smoothly for them.

=) God willing okay? haha.

I do feel kinda sorry for the guy.. due to the fact that she cant openly introduce him to others. Like so unfair to him uh? Though he claims that "its alright".. but it somehow sounds sour to her ears.. But but he seems so eager and proud to show her off to everyone. His family, friends, cousins, everyone.. Ain't he sweet? lols.

Ah whatever lah.. ta men kai xin jiu hao =)

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U'know i feel so bad when i did it.. There was once i nearly cried when doing it.. but i swallowed my tears back. I feel like a wimp. I know i should do something about it..but how? Im going to faint again.

=( God, wont You please forgive me?

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Holidays finally over. Lessons as per normal since monday. Just that we're now taking brand new modules and most importantly.. NEW TEACHERS (lecturers)! haha. Now then do i feel like im a event student. With the upcoming projects and programmes.. just simply feels awesome okay?! haha.

Anyway, semester 1 results aren't that good. 2 B's 1 C.

FAINTS lah!

-flops around, drop dead-

Gotta work VERY hard this semester.

Blah x3

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Okay, im about to KO liao.

2007-10-17T23:33:00.000+08:00

Terrible mood swings. Stay away okay? I bite.

CAAS interview tml.

I hope i get in. =)

2007-10-06T17:35:00.000+08:00

Okay, so Timothy rmbs.. =)

哈哈

2007-09-30T20:22:00.000+08:00

Yes, i know this is rotting.. let it continue to rot then.

Blah x3

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Im tired.

Wont please You forgive me?

2007-09-07T08:29:00.000+08:00

Always what?

U'know.. you* will have to work twice s hard to earn back my trust for you? I gave it to you but you broke it.. too bad then.

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Im not good enough for the tittle. Perhaps someone special might be up to it.

2007-09-06T10:50:00.000+08:00

WHY ME

Wth exams nx week.. and im sick. !@#$%

Super fed up with myself.

Why cant i be a lil more healthier?

Why so bu zhen qi?

='( im so lousy.

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feeling so emo.. guess i need a cry.

misses~

2007-09-04T10:51:00.000+08:00

Shit happens

OFA CA tml, EXAMS nx week.. and im feeling lazy about it.

Faints x100

I must do something about it.. not much time left! =(

Wish me luck kk? Blah~

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Okay, i almost crossed the line.

Im so ashame of myself..

-sigh-

2007-08-30T10:24:00.000+08:00

p/s: Gurl still carries a torch for Boy. But she knows they will never be.. at least not for now.. Boo~

Endless times

How many times when i wonder if He still loves and care for me..
How many times when i look up to the sky, wondering if He's still there for me..
How many times when i turned my eyes away from Him..
How many times when i lose my faith in Him..
How many times i just lose focus of Him..
How many times when i simply too ashame to face Him because of my deeds..

hundred thousands times..

Still, i love You loads. Nothing can pull me away from You. Your beauty, mercy, grace and faithfulness never fails to draws me back to Your glory.

I really love You.

I only want to offer my everything onto You.

Really..

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## =( I actually allow it to happen.. I will never forgive myself for that.

2007-08-17T11:48:00.000+08:00

='(

Im such a wimp. I should have done something about it.

But why am i letting it to take control?

Someone gotta slap me real hard on my forehead.

I needa wake up...

I know i might not make sense in my entry to anyone of you.. but its okay. Not unless you know my inside out..

-sigh-

2007-08-15T12:47:00.000+08:00

BOO~ Been falling sick over the past few days. Feeling so miserable and pathetic.

TLC, anyone? =(

Okay, i know im at fault. I shouldn't have allow myself to fall for it. But i couldn't help it too.. Im just a mere human with a heart and mind on my own..

Tell me what's next..

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Love, the greatest temptation of all.

Im innocent.

2007-08-02T10:51:00.000+08:00

http://hyper-dreamer.blogspot.com/2006/07/my-teacher-never-teach-me.html --> fav article to describe my current thoughts.

Sigh.

2007-08-01T12:34:00.000+08:00

Random thoughts for the day:

lalala~

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Yes, im not able to hide it anymore..

2007-07-27T11:54:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIR-TH-DAY

STEFF

JING JIE

IN ADVANCE!

2007-07-25T12:37:00.000+08:00

Sians. Wont be updating much for the following weeks? Not until my blogging maddness is back, recharge.

Blah x3

Still, rmb to click onto my name once in awhile to check if i update on my rotten blog (life) oki? =) Rmb to leave me a tag, so i know you pass by my humble rotting blog. LOL.

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## I wish you love me.

2007-07-18T11:26:00.000+08:00

Sians.

Ysd Mdm said we were all winners.

WHY?

BECAUSE THE SPERM REACHES THE EGG FASTEST, THAT'S WHY WE'RE BORNED.

Stupid Mdm..

Fancy her telling us all these crap early in the morning during lesson.

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No, i still cant decide what to do.

Faints~

2007-07-12T10:50:00.000+08:00

=( Harry Porter, anyone?

2007-07-11T12:30:00.000+08:00

Hidden tears

Im too lazy to update.. Dun wanna let you guys know my darkest secrets & pains.

Something's wrong, my dear.

2007-06-14T10:15:00.000+08:00

That's when i love you..

Doll* thought she* was left on the top shelf in the cupboard not until she* cleared things up with her* friends.. Perhaps doll* has been taking everything for granted le.. thus all these shit..

Time to learn something new, i guess?

-sigh-

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Little things that pple seldom know..

- I dun like (m scared of) bicycles. Those ugly metals gives me nightmares.
- I dun like that song, Tong Hua by Guang Liang. It gives me nightmares too.
- I actually dun have alot of self-confidence.
- I dun like (m scared) to cross the road alone.
- Im always (most of the time) not feeling good abt myself.
- I really cries easily.
- I am who you see i am. I never attempt to fake anything..
- Blah x3

& the list goes on..

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Messed up thoughts..

So should i go by right or by left?

2007-06-12T09:53:00.000+08:00

Zzz~ BL's camp over.. =)

My grp name was "Oki, fine!" Very attitude hor? haha. Joined in almost all the activities except for the photo hunt thingy and urban warfare. Too much for my heart to take it liao. LOL. I guess the most thrilling part for everyone was the Night Confidence Walk. What a walk oki.. I was made to do it the last pair with Mr Kelvin. Faints~ S long s i get to enjoy the walk, go with who also nvm lah hor? Heh. I was the brave soul, Mr Kel was the scary cat.. LOL. Inside joke oki..

So afterall he does care.. =) Perhaps he was just doing his part s a friend eh?
-sigh-

Had a bad shock from Ah Siao.. It's so haywired.. It might be a wrong feeling oki?

Faints~

2007-06-07T10:13:00.000+08:00

Im sorry but i did it again..

=(

-Xin tong-

2007-06-06T12:11:00.000+08:00

In serious sleep debt.. since last friday.. Zzz~

- that stupid song
- ah boy called
- walking in the rain
- gg home alone
- emo
- cried
- movie, starbucks, supper with FRIEND
- slept at 3am
- FRIEND morning call
- Sunday school teaching materials
- sleep & slack
- baked cookies
- DIY card
- handicraft for my kids
- slept at 5am
- FRIEND morning call
- went to Church
- poor Rachel =(
- Denise came for 2nd service
- lunch
- cab to ECP (!!)
- freaked out by those metals
- slack, play, emo, photo-whoring
- dinner with Adrian's family & gang
- re-do card (zzz)
- slept at 2+am
- FRIEND morning call
- school
- walking zombie
- KO

Had alot of fun over the weekend with my friends. Pretty happening.. LOL

Blah x3

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Oki, i gained weight due to excessive slacking and eating with my friends. WTH lah. Im gg to faint liao. Perhaps i should try starving myself for a week.. Might work, u'know? LOL.

btw, i told you* to get plenty of rest and stay at home to sleep, becuz i dint want you* to be too tired and eventually fall sick.. I mean well oki.. =(

Shall try to upload pictures asap. heehee =)

2007-05-25T08:51:00.000+08:00

=(

Horrible mood swings.. (zzz)

Why does it seems that he's avoiding me? Aren't we friends? -sigh- Or am i thinking too much? BOOS~

Est: IM SO GOING TO BITE YOU FOR TYPING THAT ON MY TAGBOARD.

2007-05-23T11:27:00.000+08:00

Today's mood : =(

Oh we talked things out ysd.. (Think) We did come to a constructive(?) conclusion tgt.. Though i cant totally agree with what she* said.

But no, im not gg to let me emotions to take control. I wont fall for the trap and make myself angry over such issue oki..

Yupp yupp, im uber stingy with my precious brain cells =)

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Im not feeling good about myself.

Let me know if you found my self-confidence hidding somewhere oki?

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I guess i will just learn how to let it* go..
Its over..

& i never had you* in my life b4..

2007-05-21T15:49:00.000+08:00

Nope, im not feeling angry over that issue again. On second thoughts.. i guess i nust have done something that allows her* to think that way, huh? NVM.

I apologise for the harsh words i used in my last entry, oki? I was really furious when Niang & Lai gui gui told me about it..

Tml.. everything will be gone tgt with the wind. Heh.

I just pray that things wont turn out ugly between those involved.

I will feel (very) bad about it oki? =(

Still, im super thankful for the bunch of lovely friends! They're really sweet, can? LOL. I think by the time we graduate from our course, i will turn out to be somone uber spoilt.!

heehee.

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Last thursday, my class were supposed to go for a outing to the National Stadium before it is being torn down.. My classmates were super good to me lah.. They even scolded the teachers for not allowing me to go for the trip. LOL.

Then we went to Marina Sq to shop then Geylang for dinner! =D Ummm quite a number of inside stuffs.. not very "decent" to share here. haha. But we were good students when we went there oki.. heh.

Weekends were boring.. Uber sians. -sigh-

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Rmb? I love to love and to be loved. =P

2007-05-17T10:38:00.000+08:00

Shit. The entry i typed went missing.. urgh!

Am super fed up with someone this morning after my Niang sms me. WTH lah. What's wrong with her*? Is she bloody screwed up with her life and thus those words and thoughts? So sick of her to be doing all these behind my back.. Dont know to be thankful for Niang to tell me about it. urgh~

Whatever man.

Anw, did i mention that my dearest Mad Cow gave me a cute poohie cushion on sat? Super lovely lah! LOL. Love her loads! =D

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Allow me to repeat myself :

I SERIOUSLY DONT LIKE THAT SONG, TONG HUA BY GUANG LIANG. STOP SINGING THAT SONG IN FRONT OF ME. OR ELSE I WILL REALLY BITE!

Urgh~

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And i almost had you.. in my dreams but never in the real life. =(

I quit..

2007-05-16T13:27:00.000+08:00

Oh my tian.. At this rate im going.. think i will only blog once a week. Then when will i ever hit my 333 post man? LOL.

Shall update bit by bit =)

Friday 11.05.07
- BZF cancelled
- Mac breakfast with Adrian, Jeremy, Peng Lek, Ugene, Denise & Edeline.
- J8 to kill time, while waiting for Ugene.. (zzz)
- Movie in town with Ugene, Jeremy, Adrian, Julyn, Denise and Edeline.
- Shopping
- Photo hunt
- Dinner at Makansutra
- Cam-whoring along "yuan yang qiao" - by Ugene =)
- My dearest sister left the digital camera on the cab

How clever can she be man? Im freakingly pissed with her. !@#$%& And she dare shout at my mama that it wasn't her fault. Wtf gave her the perimission to bring the digi cam out in the first place? She dint even ask lah!

If im to call her a bitch here, then that makes me a bitch too. Because she's my twin sister! urgh~

Spoils my mood.. =(

Saturday 12.05.07
- Daddy Andy & Marina's birthday! =)
- Ah Siao called to "wake me up" (zzz) Btw it was around 12+ when he called and im still sleeping. How interesting.. LOL.
- Met up with him for awhile
- Ice milo on Ah Siao. heehee.
- Adrian & Ugene went to Jurong Sports Complex to swim
- Met up with them after their activity
- Lunch at MAC + talking craps session
(They're really good at it oki! haha)
- Bath
- Coffee Bean at West Mall with Ivy & Sze min
- Met up with my Mad Cow near her place
- Met up with Ivy & Sze Min again after Mad Cow left
- Home sweet home past midnight

Sunday 13.05.07
- Mother's Day! =)
- De Wei (Xiong Zi)'s birthday! =)
- Missed service =(
- Slack
- Mango cake from my bitch, Gary =)
- Missed MJ session with my mama
- In debt of sleep and more sleep! LOL

Monday 14.05.07
- =) he made my day.. heehee.
- Ah Siao cut his hand
- Noisy Ugene & Adrian helped save my talktime.. LOL. (inside joke)
- Thrash out session with Ms Ng (at last)
- Lunch after school with Ugene, Adrian, Jeremy, Peng Lek, Denise, Julyn, Cindy & Edeline at J8
- Movie with Ugene, Julyn & Adrian
- 28 weeks later ; damn horror movie!
- Screaming with Julyn
- Holding onto Ugene's hand (he was laughing lah! Wth right?)

Tuesday 15.05.07
- =) he smiles & waves.. heehee.
- Pissed off by some XXX (urgh)
- J8 with Ugene, Adrian, Jeremy, Julyn, Edeline & Denise
- SMS prank (LOL)
- Conference with Ugene, Denise & Adrian

Wednesday 16.05.07 (Today)
Hmmm.. so far so good. Just that i nearly vomit blood when i read those msg.. Damn er xin lor.. Anw, Jen, im here oki? =) heehee.

-sigh-

Oki, if you've been reading my recent posts.. you might be able to tell that the names i mentioned are those i often hanged around with.. =) sometimes they're real maddness. LOL.

Now, i think i need to find a part time to finance my entertainments. Zzz

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Like what Julyn said.. i think im really blessed to have friends like you. =)

Nope, its not what you're thinking. We're only FRIENDS. That's all. Dont read too much into it oki?

I quit the game. I dont wanna hold on to it le. Wont you just let me off, please?

Allow me to show the weak side of me..

I wanna cry.. =(

2007-05-10T10:18:00.000+08:00

WHAT A WEEK!

Last Sunday after service:
- Shopping & chatting session with Clarissa & my Tang Si Jie.
- UK fun fair with Julyn, Denise, Adrian, Faridah, Cindy and bf
- Challenger & Lethal Weapon
- Heart attack & fainting spell
- Causeway Point
- Courts! =)
- He cares.. heehee.
- Porridge
- Smelly feet (Adrian)
- FUN FUN!

Monday 07.05.07
- Little Xin De's birthday!
- He asked..
- K box at AMK with Ugene, Adrian, Peng Lek & friend, Jeremy, Julyn, Denise, Edeline, Iva, from 12pm till 5+pm.
- Sore throat & still coughing very badly.. =(
- Ah Siao, damn kuku!
- Xin qing bu hao, wo ku le..
- SPOILT!

Tuesday 08.05.07
- Neoprint with Ugene, Adrian, Jeremy, Denise, Julyn, Iva, Anne Marie & Edeline
- Suffocating & squeezing into the small neoprint machine
- Cam-whoring session (guys included) LOL.
- Ah Siao called to ask why dint i reply his msg.. Zzz
- Shocked by the people who call in and chat..
- GOOD =)

Wednesday 09.05.07
- Supposed to watch movie with S4.. Cancelled and postpone to next week.
- Am i to give S4 an answer real soon?
- -sigh-
- Falling asleep in the audi
- Snap shots!
- Hang out at J8 with Denise, Adrian, Ugene, Jeremy & Peng Lek
- Still falling sick.. =(

Thursday 10.05.07
- Marina's birthday
- Same train.. =)

Oki, pictures all up at Min Min's (Julyn) blog! Go check her out! LOL.

Nope, im not a strong gurl afterall..

Am falling deeply in love with You..

2007-05-04T11:35:00.000+08:00

Friday.. still oki for me. Not coughing that much anymore, not crying, no emo.. nth =)

(finally) Went to the doctor on Wednesday. Horrible Dr Low.. Gave me so many tablets to pop in. Zzz~

Thoughts for the day:

What have you've been doing all these while? Certainly not wasting life eh? Over the years, i learnt how life short is and how fragile our lives can be. Perhaps you wanna start doing something which you've been procastinating for ages?

C'mon, go give someone a smile or a hug or even a kiss today! =)

Being a gurl who haves a heart condition, i learnt to treasure everyday of my life more than ever. Becuz no one knows what gonna happens next, right? Having a heart condition may mean that there's alot of things i cannot play or do with my friends, but i always learn to enjoy every moment in other ways.. It really a blessing to be alive, breathing and living. =)

Huggies pple!

Random thoughts:
Been sometime since i've someone special to lean on.. I know.. my friends and family members have been doing a great job (wall) for me to lean on.. So do i've God to depend on. I know, His love is sufficient to see me through all these.

2007-05-02T12:22:00.000+08:00

Friday has proven to be a bad day for me again. Wth lah.

Oki, ur beloved one (ME) was coughing way too much and my heart has decided not to put up with it and protest. Zzz~ It was so pain that i cried out (loud?) lah. Thanks to my bunch of lovely classmates. =)

Oki lah, thanks to Ah Siao also lah.. Since he's so nice to send me home.

** Someone says im being unfair to Mr shy shin goon look-alike. Fine. 10q him then!

Poor guys.. LOL.

Blah~

That si-du-pi cabby took a long way back to my place and i ended up paying 17 dollars for the fare. Super sians. Know how much i can do with that 17 dollars? urgh~

Spent my weekend + monday and tuesday at home coughing like a mad *cow.

Nope, im not very keen to visit my handsome doctor. Cannot imagaine the amount of tablets he's going to make me pop in.

Sigh~ im a naughty gurl.

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Its already MAY, pple. Time really flies. Just the other day i was writting some thoughts of my in my little book. Exactly 2 years after the incident.. will i be able to get over it and start afresh? I really hope i can. =) I know i will..

Am uber thankful for my group of loving friends and family members who never fails to go through everything with me. I feel so loved and blessed with you guys around. *winks*

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My new class is still doing fine.. I kinda like mingling with them. Becuz they always make me laughed like some mad person. LOL. Shall intro them bit by bit oki?

I've .. :
Mr follow-the-law monitor/ Mr blossom (whichever you prefer)
Miss funky monitress
Miss sleepy cat
Miss pretty IKEA outgoing gurl
Mr butterfly (buttercups)
Mr shy Shin Goon alike?
Mr moony chatty
Mr malay-sounds-alike
Miss mixed blood cartoon
Miss lala
Mr ang moh-sounds-alike
Miss bobdog & tweety bird
Miss Marie biscuit who loves me
Mr *J Bravo who like to play with my wheelchair
My T who claims to be strong
Mr horrible mimi yan
Miss latin fever
Miss GG5 gurl
Miss shortcut

Blah~

*edited on friday 04.05.07

2007-04-27T10:58:00.000+08:00

Sians. I think im falling sick soon. urgh~

Having some serious mood swings..

Pls dont dump me oki? =(

2007-04-25T12:53:00.000+08:00

The worse thing that can ever happen in class is to have that mimi yan (tanker) in the same class, being my classmate for 2 whole years.

Faints~

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Of all a sudden, i feel so distant from you. Like i never know you in the first place. You're no longer the Boy whom i first know.. =( So upset. Am i thinking too much or am i too ignorant of all these? Hmmm..

Still i wish you the best in all that you do lah. You're still my friend. =)

Sigh~

Tell me if im making sense..

2007-04-24T11:40:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

Last friday was horrible. But i survived =) though i cried badly.. but c'mon its over man. Im very sure i will get over it. I will, pluck up my courage and i will pay my respects to da tou, when i think im ready. Whatever u pple say man. Im not gg to b (very) bothered. No, im not angry of whatsoever. But hey, i thought life is always full of choices? I get to choose my rights huh? Blah~

Still, im very thankful for those who've been there for me. Thanks for ur ears, shoulders and encouragements. =) Esp my bitch, Gary.

p/s: U're an awesome friend! heehee.

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To my dearest Mad Cow:
Im here, always here whenever/wherever u need me oki? =) chins up. Life arent that bad..

Hugs dear~

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Lessons is getting boring man.. My Mdm and Yeo is talking nonsense everyday. And im having problems to wake up and get out of my hse in time to catch the bus and train. Zzz~ Only BZF make sense to me.

Im gg to faint for the hundred thousand time. LOL.

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Nope, u still dint do anything to make me smile. And i wonder why i should doing all these to help u, since u dont even have the sense of urgency.

Blah x3

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Nopes, im not feeling good.

Im not a happy gurl afterall.

Shit.

2007-04-17T11:35:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEEPS! LOL. Yups, my long waited 223 post finally is up. haha. Thanks for the the tags lah. I WAS so touched.. heh.

Nothing much abt me.. My 1 month holiday is over, and im now back in school. Yups, am taking up Business Studies (Event Management) in ITE CC (Bishan). Dont make me type out the full name of my school. Its damn long! LOL. I hope i will grow to like my course.. Boo~

Oki, i find it pretty tiring to be waking up at 6.15am, monday to friday. I miss my 14 hrs of sleep (badly)!! Thank goodness my lesson ends quite early except on thursday. Not bad lah..

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Am learning how to thank God for every moment in my life. What an awesome and faithful God i've. =) Praises to the Most Highest!

p/s: I think i lost my blogging ability.
Faints~

2007-03-07T08:39:00.000+08:00

*222 post(s)!

Oki, i know im abit slow to hit my 222 post as compared to many others. But who cares lah.. Blog so much and no one is reading.. How pathtis can it be? Eh.. dont get me wrong by thinking that im commenting on those peeps who blogs alot hor. [-_-"]

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Had been thinking alot over the past 2 weeks.. -sigh- Uber messy thoughts..

I think Friend S1 is such a jerk. ( I said i think Friend S1 is a jerk. Whether Friend S1 is one anot, only peeps who know Friend S1 will know. I dont need your comments for my friend. Yes, no matter how bad is friend.. S1 still my friend.) Friend S1 give me the feeling that he's just fooling around, never serious. Though i did thought of considering Friend S1.. But.. forget it man. I guess i must be in my sleepy mood to ever let such a thought, invading my mind.

We shall let time to speak for Friend S1 then..

C'mon, its over. Im no longer game for it. Just leave me alone..

BLAH x3

No, im not trying to throw my xiao jie temper.. Somehow everytime Friend S1 pops up the question, my Angel never fails to remind me that Friend S1 is not my matching chopstick. And the Devil also never fails to tell me to go with my heart and not mind. And of course from PS, she will always bring back da tou's incident into the picture - without failing to do so too.

I remember Noel's ( my sec school maths teacher) likes to read a book tittled : All men are jerks unless otherwise proven

Honestly i never read the book before, who knows if there is really such a book? LOL. Somewhow the tittle sums it all for my thoughts..

Hmmm.. .. ..

Life is so fragile.. I dont wanna waste my life away.

Actually i would really like to have ***************************** ... ... ... Shall not exposed too much of my thoughts here. I never know who's reading man.

-sigh-

Still, im very thankful for how my Heavenly Father has been watching over me, guiding in each step i take. I really thankful for His faithfulness.. =) All these while when im struggling with myself for an answer (to be answerable to both my Father and myself), He has never failed to be there to wipe my tears, cheering me up and talking to me. You will never know how much i've been through, and how much He loves me..

Thank you Father. =)

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Umm, blog gonna down for sometime. Just leave me a tag so i know you so happen to stumble by my humble blog. Bleah~ Must tag hor, if not Darrell will say my tagboard very dead! LOL. Better still, sms or call me 24/7 when you need to be there oki? Cheers~

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Deep down, gurl still misses boy alot.. Although gurl thinks that boy doesn't feel anything for her.. but who knows, one day boy might notice gurl and fall for her.. And the story continues..

p/s: Can i've a happy ending, pls?

2007-02-26T09:13:00.000+08:00

Urgh~ Feeling so stressed up. Im in the midst of doing my Access paper and is blogging at the same time. WTH is combo box? And Closing Balance? My formulas arent right! !@#$% Gonna explode soon..

Nah, im feeling much more stressed up with myself. The fact that my exams is coming in another week's time & im still not doing very well with my access due to the stay at ttsh.. Faints~ Hey, im not trying to find excuses oki. But that Mrs G* is simply (insert any positve adjective). Whatever man

Besides exams.. its all about me, myself and i, giving me mountains of stress. Becuz i was once badly defeated by the devil.. so badly.. that i dont wanna lose the battle to him again. Im trying to keep my myself in a state of happy mood so as not to let unwanted thoughts corrupt my brains.

Do you know its hard to smile 24/7?

Do you know it feels extremely terrible when you wanna cry and yet you've to pretend nothing's gonna happen?

Have you ever tried to win something so badly becuz you dont wanna be defeated by others?

In my case, the ultimate opponent is myself.. Sad case huh? But no.. i think im not doing oki. I cant seems to maintain that state of alertness and clear mind-ed.

And yes, i know you wont understand what im blogging about but its oki..

Perhaps no.. its not very oki..

Whatever. I cant make up my mind..

I just dont wanna fall again..

=(

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Attn to at 5n1 (BtVSS) peeps!
We're having a class outing on the 20 March 07.
Venue: Sentosa
Time: Will b confirmed again..
Pls let me know if you're coming. =)

*Yes, im organising this outing to keep my brains occupied by more meaningful stuffs.

2007-02-24T23:10:00.000+08:00

Oh dear.. I think im not oki. Mad-ed. Seriously mad-ed this time..

I think im falling real hard.. again..

** I frown becuz you were feeling down **

2007-02-21T09:29:00.000+08:00

HELLO peeps! =)

Happy PIG year! LOL.

My com at home is down (as always) at the moment. Im gg to nag at my papa to get a new one man! heehee.

New year was as usual.. Went to my uncle(s) place for dinner. For the first time, everyone is in a MJ mood. Imagine my 3 Pri 6 cousins can play MJ.. Faints~ Uh.. my papa side family never gamble during CNY. So every new year, we just gather tgt, eat talk and slack ard. Kinda booring as we grow older.. My mama side family is much much more happening lah. MJ, poker cards and Xbox like no tml.. Oh i miss HK =(

Anw, my mama taught me how to play MJ in my first 16+ years. *blush* Quite fun leh.. LOL.

Went to the movie with Friend S. Dint really enjoyed the movie due to my heavy head. Sian-ed~ Went to the roof top near Friend's place to enjoy the scenery and got chased away by the guard.. zzz

Hmmm i wonder if i should tk the step.. I think im a lil scared to do so.. What if.. .. ..

:: In reply to the tags ::

Jo & Jen : Happy New year too! =) I want angbao.. LOL

SK: HI!! Uh.. i deleted which entry?

Sam: Hi! =) Yeah, 10q gurl.

** The school IP add has been banned by me. Too bad, no one can tag with the school com. Blah x3 **

2007-02-16T11:09:00.000+08:00

Postdated thoughts.

Afew days ago, i saw one of my sec classmate, Suresh, on the train. We update each other on our recent happenings, laughed and missed the goods days in sec school. Back then in sec 2 and 3, my class is one of the naughtiest class. Everyday in school is damn happeening. Fights, quarrels, shoutings, blah x3, was part of our daily school life. He said i was a "Ah Lian" back then. Becuz i wont hesitate to shout or scream at anyone who tries to be funny with me or my friend.
* Umm, i did? LOL *
Aiyah, those were the days man. Hai xiao, so cannot blame. Bleah~

Suresh then started to point at my ballon and laughed (I was holding on to a blue plastic ballon hand).

Him: I still rmb last time you always bring to funny funny (weird weird) things to school.
Me: LOL~ Like what?
Him: Rmb your pink pacifer? Your small pillow/cushion? Winnie the pooh UNO cards, etc.
ME: Uh.. Yups.
Then we started laughing like mad-ed.

Him: I still rmb we went for the sec3 adventure camp, and you got the best camper for our class.
Me: Yups, i still have that trophy. LOL~

I then asked him who is he still in contact with.. He mentioned quite afew names. I must be dumb to ask him if he still rmbs da tou. He said yes, and said "but he's already not around..." That very moment, my heart sank. I could feel my tears flowing in me.. I miss my friend..
-sigh-

I wonder if anyone still rmbs him..

2007-02-09T11:47:00.000+08:00

ME, MYSELF AND I, PICTURES.

My 4days 3 nights stay at TTSH

On fall risk means i cant move around the ward alone.

Injuries ; after blood test

CRIB = COMPLETE REST IN BED

Anyone wants to try?

PS, waiting to be discharge.. =)

FOOD!!

ALI BABA

PS, in Xing Jiang's traditional costume

2007-02-09T11:38:00.000+08:00

Hmmm some people are purely eat-full-nothing-to-do and sms MY FRIEND, Laiting those ugly words. Come on, go getalife. Like i said, it doesnt look good on anyone who talks bad about someone when you dont mention your name. Its uber dumb. Tes, we do have some disagreement but that was all over. And we're all in good talking terms. =) My class is a all-gurls class. Gurls will know why misunderstanding happen and where communication breaks down. And the simplest way to deal with all these is to talk things out. We did and its over. Ah, no point explaining anw. Friends dont it, enemies wont believe.

BLAH x3

No more password to read my blog.. I suppose no *ugly people will tag my blog again, huh? Btw this is MY blog. Im merely typing my thoughts and feelings down. This is MY RANTING GROUND, mind you. If you cant understand my english, you're more than welcome to stop reading. =)

2007-02-05T14:46:00.000+08:00

HELLO~ Been sometime since i last blogged. Past few weeks was rather happening. Was "grandly" admitted into TTSH for my fainting spell and heart condition. Ha, i think my classmates were a lil shocked.. LOL. I dont know anything since i already fainted and was unconcious. Bleah. Did a couple of blood test and other (boring) test.. Blah x3. A big hugs to those who came to visit when i was hospitalised. I was truly touched and glad that you guys came. heehee~ Oki lah, hugs to those kind souls who actually bother to sms or call me up.. =)

Now im busying catching up with my work, since i missed school for 1 whole week. Faints~ Access is killing me. LOL.

My (ex) boss called me up last friday and asked me to work part time for them (again). Wth..

Hmmm.. Friend S4 is angry with me over some tiny winy thing. DUH~ Perhaps it means alot to friend.. but.. NVM. I always prefer guys that are truthful and never so po po ma ma.. Get that?

Something is missing.. God knows why. I wonder if i should take that step.. BOO~

I smiled because of you =)

2007-01-19T22:43:00.000+08:00

Finally can log into blogger le. YEPYEP~

Oki, not feeling very well lately.. Think im gg to fall real sick soon.. Faints. Thank goodness no major exams coming up yet. Will try to get plenty of rest man! =D

Hmmm things in class still feels a lil odd.. I hope things will go on smoothly as time goes by. Afterall, we're gg to graduate soon. Yadah yadah~ Anw, hugs to Lai ting! =D

My new kids laughed at me today.. BOO~ Just becuz im wearing specs instead of contact lenses to school. Faints.

& Old Man, pouting my lips is my daily routine oki. Stop telling me that. haha.

Just met up with my Bitch and Ah Meng Papa for dinner. 2 lamers.. & the si-du-pi bet hai wo lose 1 meal to them. Super sians lah! Been so long since i met up with my Bitch. heehee. He still look the same like b4 lah. At last, my hair is way longer than his! haha. & he got me pineapple tarts frm Malacca (izzit spelled this way? Whatever). Taste damn nice leh. =) S1 - S4 ~ LOL.

Gurl is now struggling with the fact that she miss boy.. BOO~ Will boy knows? Will gurl have the courage to run after her dreams, making true?

2007-01-15T21:11:00.000+08:00

Monday blues~

Met up with my "new kids" for early breakfast this morning. Suppose meet at 7.15am and to reach school b4 8am.. In the end, everyone reached Bishan at 7.30am. Only Jason was on time. [-_-]" It took them another 10mins b4 we settled down at the coffee shop & another 5mins to decide what to have for breakfast. Faints lah. 1st day of the week already late for lessons liao. & they were so happy to be late.
*flops ard, drop dead*
Oki, i feel old when im with them.. They always look and sound so energetic lah. On 2nd thoughts, i think i never told them my age leh. haha.

& y i always never get to see Old Man taking 180 de? Not fair (lor)! @!#$%

Went for facial & spa treatment after school. Damn shiok lah. The facial treatment is quite similar to the ones i had in HK. So nth much. It was the spa treatment that got me laughing to myself like mad. haha. No rose petals, no foamy foams blah x3. Saw something R(A)-ed.
-Contents not to be revealved lah-

Really thankful for God, for answering my prayers. It simply reminds me to stand firm in Him. & stop worrying for those unnecessary things. He has it all planned in His hands. =)

2007-01-12T15:49:00.000+08:00

Wasn't feeling well this morning. So mama says i can miss school for a day. Pop in some pills then zzz till now (3+). Log into hyper-dreamer's blog.. Yups, i saw and read those tags. Sorry, had to delete them from my tag board. Still.. I suppose i must say a words of thanks for those who tagged? I believe all might have tons to say.. Just talk straight in the face, yah? Hmmm.. in random reply to those tags.. I never thought myeslf to be pretty, I never thought myself to be clever if not i wont be where i am now, Im never a 2 sided face, probably 2 sided character? Not sure why and how pple get to think this way, probably becuz you judge what you see? I dont know...

Things that you might not know.. I never dislike anyone. Like i said, im very stingy with my brain cells. Im not willing to waste my brain cells getting angry. We always get a choice to either think positively or negatively. I simply dont see a point why i should think on the negative side and cause myself to be so miserable. & i dont see the need having to dislike anyone since noone is prefect huh? Perhaps getting angry, yah i do. But i never let my anger last for a day. Becuz it spoils my mood, and i tend to throw my temper at my family members. Not very good..

Yes, i admit that at times i behave like a very pampered gurl. But i never attempt to fake anything. I admit that. Becuz my sec school and church mates really gave in alot to me, thus my attitude. Saying that im good at "everything" is a real joke. Im totally not good with alot alot of things. Yups, love me for who i am. I am what i am. Then? Change? I bet there's a particular area that everyone needs (wants) to change and improve on it. Changing not for the sake for changing a better person. I doubt you will like anyone who would change according to your likings. Becuz that would make that person look and feel so plastic. & if such person really exists.. wont you find him/her hypocrite?

Scolding pple on my blog? I did? If you were refering to my last post where i said someone dumb.. it was not meant to scold anyone. It was just my thoughts. Moreover i dint even mention names. So must you think i was refering to someone you know? If i dint rmb wrongly, i think i only scolded my gan ma b4 in my blog. Other times, pure sarcasm? Maybe wanna read those entries with another point of view, at your own time? Anw, i really dont know how you interpret from my entries that i was scolding pple. Annoying? Then dont read. Dont make yourself annoyed and angry at the same time.

Whoever it is, i think you're being rather unfair to me. I dont believe all your life you never come across a similar person like what you said i am. Although i choose not to think that im totally at fault..

Im not gg to trust phone conference, unless you want to thrash things out with me personally over the the phone. Perhaps only a face-to-face talk will do us good?

If you happen not to know, the password to enter this blog is a very nice Christian song. All for love not for anyone reading hyper-dreamer's blog.

2007-01-11T21:48:00.000+08:00

Simply lost for words. *cries*
It was so obvious that even the blind can tell. Its super odd. Wad can i still do? Wad do you still want? Dint know im that jialat to get along with. I dont know.. Why not you tell me what you expect. Dont make life difficult..
** Wonder what's next.. **

My "new kids" are so nice to ask me for breakfast this morning. And they waited for me at the mrt station for more than half an hour. *bish* Very sweet bunch of youngsters. heehee. One of them have kindaly upgraded me as their Grandmother instead of mama. Faints. Dint know im that naggy~ Oh my tian.

Oh, had SSG dress up today. Lai ting helped me with my foundation, Azzie did my eye liner, Hidayah did my eyes shadow, and Nadia did my mascara. Oki, iim not that good at make up mah. So got them to help. heehee. 10q lor =D

btw, i think it looks really dumb when you gave that signal. So you think i would be interested to do so?

NEVER will i !

Planning to get a pair of new specs.. Might not want to wear contact lenses for the time being.. Lazy, is not my excuse. Just some other inside stuffs. blah x3

What can i still do (say) to make friend(s) understand that im scared?

Oh i think gurl haven seen guy around for quite sometime.. Hmmm...