Hmmm..after hours of crying( from 4+pm onwards to 3+am), i've finally managed to calm down and think of my future. Maybe what i was wanted for myself wasn't what God intended for me. I certainly believe that God has a better plan for me. He hold MY future - isn't it? =) Thinking back, i find myself rather silly. Perhaps de word dumb or brainless will suits me better. Becuz i gave in to my emotions to control me. Things just hit me, and my 1st "basic" reaction..CRY. Cool eh? Cant believe that you actually have such a brainless fren like me? Heh. De moment i received my results over de phone (besides crying), just some special one keep flashing in my mind. Sadly, its a gurl, not a dude. haha. I only thought of calling Weien, my tang si jie. Weird~ Though we dont really share much with each other..but strangely, she was de ONLY one i wanted to talk to. X) Maybe afew others too..Even though we chatted for awhile, i really do feel better after it. At least, i managed to stop crying for few minutes. haha. Then then.. i chat with Tianyue via MSN. Yep yep.. she brought back de song, Shen de Dao Lu, into my thoughts again. You will understand me if only you can rmb de song. =) sing along with me,eh? Sing lahx..can hear you de. =D Sho now..got new plans for myself. God will know if it ish de one for me. He shall and He will decide, for me.
Be whispering a prayer for me, yah? =) I will to keeping you guys in my prayers too. Promise.
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I cheered with joy @ | Saturday, February 11, 2006
