-sigh- I think im been drugged, by someone. It seems that after 2 whole years, im still not out of his game. Yet now, he's living happily with his new one. Perhaps, its not HIS game that im not out, but THE game. Yeah, i refer this thing as a game. Good for you, if you managed to win and have the award for the rest of your life. Haha. what a lame comparision man. nvm~ I guess im still living in his shadows. No doubt that occasionally i will still dream of him and cries.. but things are never the same anymore. I am who i am, he is who he is. But i thought i was out of the game for ages ago! You mean, i was lying to myself for 2 whole years? I cant believe it man. Just 2 years ago, i can still can him, mine. 2 years later, i can only call him MY friend. And i thought i have already fallen for someone else. Didnt i? gosh~ im sho damn confused. I only pray now and ask God to tell me which is true and which is false. I bet satan is using one of them, to confuse me and lead me awy from God. Becuz God only delights in the truth, ya? *Good for you, if you managed to read this entry, and understands. =)
I cheered with joy @ | Thursday, December 29, 2005
