The Blessed One

Saturday, December 31, 2005

urgh~ in 30 mins time, we will be welcoming 2006. and im another year older? Nooo!! 2005 has proven to be a dreadful year, for me. things/events just come crashing me, w/o any signs of warning. maybe i aren't alert enough to notice them? sho..can i ask if all those unhappy things will come to an end, since we are only minutes awy from 2006? oh no.. im feeling sho sian-ed by everything. *where has my festive mood disappeared to??!!* hmmm.. i guess i do look forward to a better year ahead. heehee.. i pray for myself that in a new year, i would only looked back at my past one year, as a lesson. that i will only looked back, learn something from it and never to pick up anything from it. *chim eh? haha.* nvm.. -sigh- lets just dump every bad memories behind and look positively in a new year ahead. =)

I cheered with joy @ | Saturday, December 31, 2005

Hey! did you guys notice something? i changed the blogskin myself! haha. achievement horx? heehee. it took me quite some time to figure everything out horx. dunno lose how many zillions of brain cells in the process man. haha.
& todae is the last day of 2005. seems like things is really ending fast. i guess i really did learn a lot a lot.. it never come across my mind that such awful days would end "so fast". counting the real "achievements" i achieved this year, would probably only be taking my O's. at least..i dint opt not to tk my O's. i managed to finished my every single paper.

oki..lemme say something that has got no link now. when a person is being pushed to his/her limits, he/she would not only start to breakdown, but also building up his/her own comfort zone, and isolating him/herself. just like a rubber band being pulled to its max, it is going into a danger of snapping anytime. my point here is.. dont YOU ever want to "force" me to go any further at your pace. becuz im telling you pple now, im abt to SNAP. this is not a threat to anyone. im stating the fact. i know becuz i know myself better than anyone of you do. unless it is GOD, HIMSELF.

lastly, DONT YOU EVER THINK YOU KNOW ME VERY WELL. BECUZ YOU DONT.

I cheered with joy @ | Saturday, December 31, 2005

Friday, December 30, 2005

Hmmm.. i guess i needa clarify something here. My previous entry is just a "comparision" or maybe you can say its a made-up story. Though the fact that i haven't been into a relationship for the past 2 years, are true.. but ... Oki.. i guess its rather hard to link the things up. argh~ ask me personally, will you? *if you really cant understand and so desperately want to know. if not, leave me alone, will you?*

I cheered with joy @ | Friday, December 30, 2005

Thursday, December 29, 2005

I cheered with joy @ | Thursday, December 29, 2005

-sigh- I think im been drugged, by someone. It seems that after 2 whole years, im still not out of his game. Yet now, he's living happily with his new one. Perhaps, its not HIS game that im not out, but THE game. Yeah, i refer this thing as a game. Good for you, if you managed to win and have the award for the rest of your life. Haha. what a lame comparision man. nvm~ I guess im still living in his shadows. No doubt that occasionally i will still dream of him and cries.. but things are never the same anymore. I am who i am, he is who he is. But i thought i was out of the game for ages ago! You mean, i was lying to myself for 2 whole years? I cant believe it man. Just 2 years ago, i can still can him, mine. 2 years later, i can only call him MY friend. And i thought i have already fallen for someone else. Didnt i? gosh~ im sho damn confused. I only pray now and ask God to tell me which is true and which is false. I bet satan is using one of them, to confuse me and lead me awy from God. Becuz God only delights in the truth, ya?
*Good for you, if you managed to read this entry, and understands. =)

I cheered with joy @ | Thursday, December 29, 2005

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

-sigh- stay at home and slack my day. the weather is ultra nice to slp man. heehee.. feeling so moody. been tinking of one particular qns since Sunday. ish tat a obvious hint to ask me let go? should i quit de game now? can i? tis ting ish like a chewing gum, sticking onto me. i cant seems to get rid of it. im feeling sho tired. go away,dummy. argh~ i want a cry. can i [cry.out.loud]?

I cheered with joy @ | Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Monday, December 26, 2005

Heya. back to update after all the "party" in church. heehee~ i went to watch Narnia on fridae's night after church. (with Pauline,Yukang,Limjiejie,Yanru and Yonghuay.) the movie quite nice lehx.. i was relating it back to the bible while watching it. sho i find the whole movie rather meaningful. and YH was telling me she nearly fell aslp? OMG~ but she ought to be feeling tired lahx.. wad more can you expect after one dae of work then singing then movie? heehee. reached home ard 2+ lorx. sho tired man. and i woke up i so early de next day for church. not that i mind, but i felt so restless. =O "running" ard the church to get the powerpoints/laptop/doorgifts ready. i think i might have shed some 0.5kilos from the whole process? Haha. btw, im the only "powergirl" that night (saturday night lahx)! just because im doing all the powerpoints.. [-_-"] Lolx~ and the whole da tang ish as cold as a fridge lorx. my hands were freezingly cold man. * uh-huh.. * but then i already received like 2 presents? from pple. Haha. One from Meiyun's 3 kids, another from Jingxian and Xueling. heehee.. then at 12.05am?. my fren (Old man) came to meet me at my place to give me my Christmas present lehx! Haha. my mama was like" who sho bo liaox man? ...". but who cares, i got my 3rd Christmas present, my favourite Chocolates!! =D so we sat down and talk craps, while looking out for any insane cats, running abt. in the end, i slept at 4.30am, and i have to wake up like 7am for church? urgh~ as expected, i woke up late. thank God, uncle Jiming "fetch" me to church. if not, i will be hell late. after service and everthing, i went shopping! with Yiwen,Lianshi,Lianxin,Esther,Wenhui,Weiling,$4.90 (Hengyue),Junyan,Guangyi and Crosby. *did i left out anione's name?* we took another neoprint together lehx! damn dunny lorx. nahz, wait till Guangyi scan de pic, i shall upload it man. =P heehee.
sho.. i received quite a number of presents and cards from my churchmates and frenz. [[ 10q for all your presents man! namely: Meiyun's 3 kids,Jingxian and xueling, Shuping, Pauline, Romei, Old man, Julia, Esther and Yiwen. ]] =)
that should sums up all for my Christmas weekend.. heehee.

I cheered with joy @ | Monday, December 26, 2005

Friday, December 23, 2005

OMG~ today(22nd dec) de weather is so nice to slp in lorx. and i was being forced to wake up, to accompany my mama to see doctor. urgh~ nvm. after that, i went to meet my cg mates for dinner. we had Xtremely gd food man! i ate sho full until i felt like throwing up lorx.. yeah, we had loads of fun and laughter too. and i found someone who likes to eat fresh sashimi! Lolx~ i mean some pple find it gross to eat raw food.. but who cares? =P
**btw i forgot to mention YIWEN's name in my last entry. so sorry YIWEN darling. yep yep, she came down to help out for de door gifts and everything. thanks man! =D

I cheered with joy @ | Friday, December 23, 2005

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Yeah, finally back home after a long day in church man. Haha. i reached church at ard 1pm n left ard 9.30pm lorx! OMG~ I should have camp in church man. Haha. But i considered the time spent worthwhile n fruitful, since we managed to finished 120 door gifts, 300 booklets and 3oo stars. Not bad eh? Alot of printing, cutting and "glueing". All thanks to my churchmates(namely Weiling,Lianxin,Julia,Esther,Yiwen,Hengyue,Guangyi,Crosby and Junyan)! Thanks peeps! Thanks for taking time down to help out. =D Indeed, it is something worth doing for God. Though part of the time were spent slacking around,chatting and playing..but nevermind lahx. And i was playing with Enjie while "slacking". Haha. She is sho cute lorx.. And she even drew me a picture with my name on it, and a heart(shape)! Aren't she sweet? heehee.. She went round taking pictures with her fake pink princess camera. Haha. Oh yah, seems that she click very good with JJ too. Lolx~ Then after one whole day of work, Hengyue,Junyan,Guangyi,Crosby and i went for coffee and prata. Haha. The guys are hell lame lorx. And i dind know that Hengyue can be that lame too. Kinda of shocked arx. Lolx~
But.. someONE really pissed me off. Maybe someTHING makes my blood boils too. Haha. Crosby was like 1 1/2 hrs late? Nevermind, becuz by the time he reached, my gurls have already started doing work le. SomeONE keep calling me and ask hell stupid qns. I seriously felt like punching the person man. Can i? *argh* Nvm, dont wanna waste my brain cells geting angry over it. No point man. And YOU aren't worth it,btw.
Now im only worried if i got any of them into troubles with their parents. After all, quite late lehx. Plus all of them are sho YOUNG. Haha~ Nahx,God SHALL and WILL bless them man. heehee.. =D
*btw, im trying HARD" to stop using/typing singlish. trying to be "more" purr-fect.* =D

I cheered with joy @ | Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

phew~ im finally having time for myself. heehee~ woke up ard 4+pm todae. aren't i de "greatest"? haha. i haven't been getting enuff rest since camp. seriously lack of slp man. IF not i tink im falling sick again, soon. haha.
someone "request" me to blog abt de 5daes 4nites AnShao camp.. sho i shall write 1 nice nice entry abt it. heehee..

firstly, i muz sae tat de campsite ish VERY huge and spacious! we got 2 seperate bunks for de guys n gurls ; 1 big hall for us to carry out our activities dere. (i call de hall multi-purpose hall, short form MPH) n 1 huge kitchen! haha. i simply loved de place man. heehee..
1st dae of de camp, everyone look rather excited - choosing their own beds, exploring de place and stuffs. ice breaker n telematch was fun.. everyone played like mad! haha. then ard dinner time, Rev.Chong helped us to order dinner n drove Rev.Yang n JJ to join us. after dinner was Praise n Worship by me.. **OMG** JY horx, keep telling me i muz do a gd job, sho he can "follow".. stressed man. but it turn out quite well lahx - i guess. alot of laugher n abit of excerise. heehee~ amazingly,most of de gurls managed to get to slp after lites out. n many were slping soundly..i know becuz i woke up in de middle of de nite to help dem cover blankets. haha. oki lahz, i rather "enjoy" waking up in de nite to help dem cover blankets. =D n my Mad cow gave me like 14 miss calls?! for de 1st nite. (o.O)" yeah, we had 5BX for camp - after sho many yrs in camp. haha. de games was thrilling! everyone was sweating like mad after it. haha.. but i wasn't in for de games part. dey r too violent for me man. lolx. sho i sat ard, trying to read de Bible n listening to mp3. workshop1 (BGR tingy) was rather "attractive" to all. sum even tk down notes. haha. i post a qns earlier tis yr - "i rejected a guy becuz he's a non-Christian. my frenz tinks im crazy n im wrong to do sho. isn't my fault then?" i cried-out-loud for abt 1hr after de workshop, sumhow it touches my heart's bloody wound. not tat i juz ended a relationship lahx. juz sum other matters-of-de-heart..ya know? i cried sho badly, tat my 2 eyes were horribly swollen. but hu cares whether it's ugly or not man. then de dae follows as planned.. ... i wasn't part of de 3rd n 4th dae de games. i was bz playing with MY's 3 kids in my room. haha. campfire was thrilling man. we danced n luff like mad.. haha. 4th dae de games i was slping in my room. not tat im lazy horx. i was feeling sick in de morning, slping de whole morning. n when i woke up, i tried to walk on my own..(becuz im having a backache, sho muz walk abit to relieve de pain) n i fainted outside my room. wad happen next then i dunno le. i only know sumone piggy back me to de van n send me to de doctor. i seriously tot de person who piggy back me was $4.90(HY) lorx. but seems tat im wrong? nvm.. de moment i woke up, all de gurls was "rushing" to tok to me. then i knew tat YW cried n other stuffs.. haha. very touched to know tat dey actually cared alot for me. heehee. i feel loved by dem, both guys n gurls n also God. =)
after all, i enjoyed myself greatly during de camp. had a gd sharing time with afew of dem. n i really witness how God has been working in dem. indeed, God has seen each n everyone of us through de camp. i suppose all of us did grow together in de camp. i mean spiritually,mentally,emotionally n physically. heehee.

tat shld sums up de whole AnShao camp ba? heehee. gd for u if u manage to finish reading de whole entry. haha. =)

I cheered with joy @ | Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Monday, December 19, 2005

Heya.

I managed to get tis blog working, with WeiLing's help. Haha.
Then i copy n paste all my past entries frm de Xanga tingy. clever ba? heehee.. (www.xanga.com/Pizzie_love)
aiyahx, i dun wanna lose de post mahx. dey do mean sumting to me. =D
but then i dint manage to copy all. abit lazy man. heehee~
i shall stop for a moment b4 i continue to update ba. im feeling really tired man.
sho stay tuned, dudes/babes! =)

I cheered with joy @ | Monday, December 19, 2005

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Sho much sho after de previous entry. Haha. Cool eh?

You are a Great Girlfriend
When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtful
But you also haven't stopped thinking of yourself
You're the perfect blend of independent and caring
You're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

You are Milk Chocolate
A total dreamer, you spend most of your time with your head in the clouds.
You often think of the future, and you are always working toward your ideal life.
Also nostelgic, you rarely forget a meaningful moment... even those from long ago.

You are a New Age Girl!
You're bright, opinionated, and dedicated to changing the world.
Even if it's one hybrid car at a time, you do you part to make things better.
In fact, you may be so busy with your causes that you have little time for love.
Take an extra yoga class or two, and you just might meet New Age Guy!

I cheered with joy @ | Monday, December 19, 2005

Sunday, 11.12.05 :

Back off dummy. I BITE.

Omg, i cant believe this man. How come there are so many idio*s in my life? What the hell.. Cant they leave me alone? I dint ask for your opinions or your bu wen zhi qu de actions. Maybe all these people needs to bang the wall to wake up? damnit. Im super pissed with all these dummies. I only i can.. i will punch them really hard on their arms. Argh~ Nvm. I shan't carry any further, before i explode into bits. Anyway, such people aren't worth it. Im NOT willing to waste my brains cells getting angry over it.

Anyway, tml is AnShao camp! **yeppie!!** 5 days 4 nights is really long. Imagine you gonna see the same 20+/30 people for like a week?, that is kinda of mad. But i suppose it WILL be fun too lahx. Suppose to stuffs my clothes and everything into 1 big hand carry bag de. But then, some idiot took it away without me knowing. And thus, i have to find 2 bags to contain my clothes n everything. Hell.. But thank God, becuz now i only got 1 small backpack and 1 hand carry bag to bring along. Kinda of "proud" of myself for managing to stuff all my things in. heehee. Just pray that my bags will have sufficient space for all of my stuffs at the end of the camp. Dont know why every time at the end of the camp, my bags never seems to have enough space for all my stuffs lehx. Hmmm... cannot figure out why lehx. Aiyahx, just PRAY really hard ba. Haha~ Actually im not much in the mood for camp. Im feeling kinda of bored about the whole thing lorx. Hmmm.. think i needa reflect on it later. Lolx~ Just hope i can enjoy myself in the camp lorx. Hope can take this chance to enjoy each other's company too. And of cuz, God's company.
-sigh- but im really feeling down these few days. Mood swings? Haha. Well, i guess i wont put the blame on the fact that im having depression. Im "suppose" to feel depressed huh? Haha. Maybe i aren't drawing myself near God ba? -sigh- Of all a sudden, im feeling so lost. **What's wrong with me man?** Nono. I desperately need a cry. And i mean to [-Cry.Out.Loud-], my dear.

I cheered with joy @ | Monday, December 19, 2005

Monday, December 05, 2005 :

Tell me sho..if u do

-sigh- im feeling sho moody. hmmm, i've been tinking abt one particular qns for de past few days. shld i continue to fall for tat sumone? haha~ i rmb HuiMin daoshi once told me tat, wen we liked sumone or sumting, dere muz b a reason for it. if we claims tat we juz like tat sumting(or wadever) w/o a reason, de feeling of liking ish fake de. & Charlie alwaes tell me de same ting over n over again.." No, dere muz b a reason de ". sho wad dey sae ish true horx? aiyahx, wadever it ish..i tink i'll choose to let it go ba. becuz given my present condition, i dun tink i can handle it. *hey..i still got 3 tings yet to start or achieve horx.* cant tink of a reason to fall for tat sumone, though he falls rather "nicely" into my category. y mk myself feeling sho miserable wen i can only drm abt it n never taking place in de real life? xiang tai duo de huo guo lahx.. suan le ba. -sigh- i tink it wuld b better to let it go now, than to wait until i fall too hard to let it/him go. yesh, im not going to hold on to it le. im out of de game.

hmmm.. mayb im feeling scared ba? really scared. i have phobia of stepping into a new relationship. becuz, im scared de person ish not true to me n will dump me for wadever reasons he can tink of. im not de type of gurl hu can easily fall for sumbody n jump out of it once its over. im not de gurl whom u tink can fool ard. im sumone hu tk's everyting seriously. im sumone hu ish committed into wadever tings i do. *dun u agree sho? hmmm* i dun want to mk myself feel miserable. n even if i cant get out of it now, i'll choose hide it.
God has alr arrange one very gd one for me. sho i shall drop wadever drms i have for tat sumone. mayb he ain't de one got has arranged for me?
-- pls dun do aniting tat mk me fall for u again. i dun like to play dan lian. though u've been a nice fren..n u've bot much joy into my life, etc. but i need time to first settle down on tings i've set for myself. de rest will wait, i guess?
But tell me sho..if u ever feel de same wae juz like how i feel for u.

I cheered with joy @ | Monday, December 19, 2005

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Get to KNOW me better-part2. heehee

How In Love are you ?
You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.In relationships, you tend to be a bit selfish.You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.
http://www.blogthings.com/howareyouinlovequiz/

The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts.Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

Your Personality Profile
You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant.Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.For you, comfort and calm are very important.You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.

How You Live Your Life?
You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

Haha. i tink all quite true for me lehx. sumwad purr-fectly describe me. how true for u then i dunno liaox. mayb u guys wanna give it a try n tell me whether if its true for u too? heehee..

I cheered with joy @ | Monday, December 19, 2005

Saturday, December 03, 2005 :

Get to KNOW me better ?!?

What is your inner child?
Your inner child is surprisedYou see many things through the eyes of a child.Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded.You cherish all of the details in life.Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

What kind of pie are you?
You are apple pie.
You're the perfect combo of comforting and traditional Those who like you crave security

What kind of kisser are you?
You are a sensitive kisser
For you, kissing is a way to connectAnd you need lot of care, attention, and privacyIt may take you a while to kiss someone...But when you do, it's total fireworks

Lolx~ happen to stumble to tie webby, then go play de quiz lorx. damn funny arx! wahaha~ mayb u guys want to check it out too? i dunno how to post n copy de pic here lehx. sho juz make do w/o it lahz, oki? heehee btw, tis webby can access to all those "stupid" quiz de. heehee
http://www.blogthings.com

I cheered with joy @ | Monday, December 19, 2005

Saturday, November 26, 2005 :
Complicated.Sweet.Love
Sigh.. haven been updating abt my complicated life. heehee
24.11.05 was my skool grad nite. full of glamour n attractions - i suppose. de gurls muz b sexily dressed n sum pple mit c dem as bitches. *opps* aiyahz, wad i mean ish if u dun like tis gurl, then however she dress, u'll still relate her as a bitch mahx. correct? haha. nvm if u dun agree. i bot myself a pretty white dress. i feel like a princess wen i put in on. haha. i shld b able to aww-ed my frenz ba? lolx~ n i WAS suppose to b part of de limelight too horx! i WAS suppose to enjoy all de attention n glamour de horx! but i dint turned up. i went to shop at bugis, suntec n marina sq instead, wearing my beautiful white dress, heels n make-up. i feel like a clown. sho dumb. i took quite a number of pictures. shld b quite nice lahz. but my dearest cousin-photographer accidentally deleted all my photos. well, i shan't explain here y i dint turn up - pointless. -sigh-
i went to tis Ai Qing Hai to have my dinner. de moment i stepped ish de charge was alr $9.80++ with 1 free drink liaox. -diaoz- but de food was gd lahx. sho nvmz. i got to hear Nick Shen to sing !Live lehx! haha. sho yandao. wahaha~ he smile at me lehx!! which i tink he did tat to almost everyone? haha. *bimbo shrugs*
25.11.05 - i was slacking at home. cant really recall how i spent my dae. lolx.~ nth much special. except tat my baobei didi ish back home for de weekend! yeppie!! heehee..
then todae lehx..spent my whole dae in church for tis tong gong hui. did quite alot of those last minute de powerpoints. haha. abit messy, i guess. haha. but horx, i early morning go accompany my mama to c doctor liaox. aren't i a gd gurl? haha. then after de meeting, went to shop with Bi Li for her wedding shoes. sho hard to search for a pair of nice nice shoe. lolx~ wedding also stressed man. after tat went to de ice monster to find de rest of dem. sianz~ haha. thank God YJ drive me n Bi Li to marina sq, wen de rest have to walk dere. =D go tat marina food loft n have dinner lorx. de baked rice was gd. haha. sumone "stole" my rice lehx! OMG~ heehee.. n yep, we met each other up lorx.. hmmmm..have i fallen with ...??
** Wo bu shi mei chi shi lian le, duo ke yi cong lai** --("v")

I cheered with joy @ | Monday, December 19, 2005

Wednesday, November 23, 2005 :

Pissed, i m

Yep yep.. my first dae off after my O's. kinda of bored lehx.. i went for a movie. (gosh~) sho no life rite? aiyahx, promise my bitch n fren, cunning2 mahz. then go lorx. ( yeah, i call one of my fren, Bitch. =D he's a very gd fren of mine lahx.) went to watch Harry Potter. heehee. i've been wanting to go for de movie since de begining of de year liaox. haha meet up with my 2 "horrible" frenz n headed to PS. but then horx, wen we were q-ing, de person annouced tat movie tickets ALL SOLD OUT liaox. **wad de fish** so we went to Suntec de Eng-Wah cinema to watch. n dere wasn't ani pple q-ing! hmmm, mayb one or two lahx. lolx~
aniwae, de movie ish pretty bad? i mean, not very exciting lehx. plus horx, y de movie cut until sho short sia? i watch until i very blur lehx. OMG. though sum scenes were quite thrilling -with de dragon chasing after Harry Potter, etc. n de part where his fren (cant rmb his name) died during de competition was really sad-ed. i cried lehx. y ish it tat de dark arts teacher ish alwaes de baddy? becuz its dark arts? haha. nvmz~ Cho chang ish quite pretty lahz. same nationality as me mahx. n she got de SAME chinese name as me! wahaha =D but horx, y de Malfoy only come out afew shots? sianz man. aniwae, i tot he look like one of my fren - Andy H***. lolx~ forget abt de movie ba.
im feeling sho pissed now.
my 2 two frenz r indeed "horrible". both walk sho fast. machiam go catch de train. or dey r trying to hint tat i've short legs? wth. i was trying hard to catched up wtih dem. making myself look like a fool, with me half running n walking. hell.. my bitch ish giving my face de whole time lorx. not like i step on his tail. aniwae, he dun even have one. =P heck him. but still, frenz for sho mani yrs liaox.. i wont tk it to heart de lahx. juz rather pissed.
my cunning 2 ish far worse than my bitch, though he was nice enuff to send me home. but horx, he pinched my cheeks lehx! sho damn de pain lorx. hell.. he ish alwaes making me cry. i told him not to stand sho close to me, n he tinks im joking with him. n keep on pushing my limits by standing closer n closer. i do feel like slapping him for being sho rude. hu de hell ish he man? not even considered as my close fren or whoever. feel sho angry lorx. im not trying to be xiao qi lahx. but.. nvm~ yeah, he mit tinks its oki, but NO for me. I MIND. he even tried to cover my mouth with his giant hand! Oh boy! dirty my face.. i wish i culd punch him in de face. he ish never a gd boyfren/husband material, in my opinion. argh! it simply mk's my blood boils to recall de incident. btw, he sae i can mention abt tis here de horx, though he mit not read it..
simply feeling pissed with tis 2 boys.
i seriously nid sumting to cool me down, b4 i start scolding de innocent pple. lolx..

I cheered with joy @ | Monday, December 19, 2005

Tuesday, November 22, 2005 :
Gone with de wind~
Yeppie! 22.1105, 3pm, O's has finally declared over!! finally... de most stressful period has gone with de wind~ i feel sho light now. tink i gonna fly off to de moon liaox. then i can check if Chang er really lives dere with de rabbit. haha. with tat big load off, i can now sit down n tink for myself. - to be in de world of mine own.
as least, i can stop hearing pple telling me wad to do for my O's. becuz its over n gone! =) n wad more ish, pple will stop coming to me n sae " muz do well for urself n da-tou". nvmz. too tired to tink ani further. shall continue tml..
**counting de number of brain cells dead..**

I cheered with joy @ | Monday, December 19, 2005

Sunday, November 20, 2005 :
Stress-ed
Hmmm..i miss my didi. He went back to de "lonely" place le. Then noone pei wo talk talk, play play liaox. He's a very sensible boy horx. Though he still creates trouble for pple.. but then i love him loads horx! He's alwaes MY dearest lil brother, no matter how naughty he ish. -sigh- shan't talk abt le lahz. i'll cry again. -nvm-
Im feeling sho fed up wen pple tell me " Hmmm..u DUN look very stressed for ur O's lehx ". OMG Pls, pple.. dun ever pretend tat u know me very well. i dun needa report to anione, mind u. then muz i tell u i eat/do/shit todae? dumbos. i dun need to write my my forehead to sae tat im stressed. wad de fish~ nvm, i shan't put bad light unto anione.
but im really stressed during tis period of my O's. i desperately want to do well for my exams. i want to get into de poly course i like. i really want to do n score well. n my classmates r giving me hell lots of pressure. i've pple come telling me tat i muz do well for my O's, becuz im have to do it for da-tou, who will also want to give in his best for his O's - if he's still ard. im like " wad de hell, me? y of all ME?? .." .aren't u his fren too? cant u do it for him too? its sho damn de unfair lorx. i juz feel like crying, but noone hears. noone cant seems to hear n understand. n all de nitemares im having everynite, really drains me out. it ish haunting me everydae.. horrible drm-maker.
tk my life man. i juz want to b alone, free frm all tis stupid shit.

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Friday, November 18, 2005 :

-sigh- i spent half of my dae slacking at home. nono, in my dreams - to be exact. lolx~ to slp ish my BEST time hobby. aniwae, i was damn pissed todae lorx! wait for my mama to come n meet me, takes forever man. i waited for 1 hr lehx! OMG but then, i was de one to ask her out lahx. but also dun need me to wait sho long rite? make me look like an idiot. nvm~ i SHALL forget abt it.
spend de rest of my dae at church. but horx, i half-wae went off to play with my kids. haha. my all-time favourite past time. heehee~ dey r sho damn de cute lorx! wooo..im love dem to bits man. my X darling sae he's a gurl, not a boy. lolx. n i've to go after him, cleaning his mess, after him eating his purple sticky sweet. all over he office n even his hair, got bits of de sticky sweet. Yuck~ spoil de hair lehx. lolx~ i really wonder how he eat de sweet de. his 10 fingers ish smeared with it, n all ard his small lil cherry lips! (yin tao xiao zhui) hmmm.. ish all boys r like tat? * *ponders** then his bro, even cuter arx! heehee. he would go like " huh? noo...", etc. *shrugs* nvmz. dey juz simply brightens up my world.
but horx, im sho damn de fed up with tis person. (juz call de person AA ba) AA really makes my blood boils man. keep ask me tis, ask me tat. Piangz~ can i punch AA ? nvmz. i shan't continue abt AA. i still want my slp. =D

** Pizzie ("v") --

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