Saturday, January 26, 2008
Smells bad. Very bad. Even tom the cat smells it and Peter the blind saw it. Will it end or will it not? I pray not. Because i love you.Labels: Pain
I cheered with joy @ | Saturday, January 26, 2008
Only Daddy know what's going on for the past few days.. No one bothered. No one noticed. Only Him. I tried telling you, but you were either too busy with yourself or im too busy with my work. Nevermind. I thought tonight we'd get to chat a little before we sing our lungs out. I admit i was abit disappointed when you said you couldn't come over. And i really dont mean those words. Look at you.. using that hurtful tone on ME. Fine, i gladly take 'em. I know i shouldn't said those things in the first place.. but you ever stand in my shoe and think? You dont like me to push all my bad mood unto you, fine.Know how it feels like when my heart aches? It pains even when i breathe. Ouch.Labels: Pain
I cheered with joy @ | Saturday, January 26, 2008
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Was away in school for the past 2 days. Had medical appointments and stuffs. Damn tired. Goodness, i think im in a bad shape. Really ought to do something before it gets worse. If not.. Bebe is going to nag again. Blah~******
Sometimes i wonder..If you ever encounter anyone who attempt to be nice to you, and stab you from behind. How does it feels like? Sounds so scary for me. Because you never know what's the person up to. So 怕怕。I cant help but to acknowledge the fact that scary people do exist. They're scary because they do things all beneath a smile. They're simply too scary.!! EEE~ I dont need anyone to be doing all these for me, you can jolly well dont do it. In the first place, noone ask you to do them. At least i never attempt to fake things out. Im always very true to my feelings. When i dont like, means i dont like. Nevermind if you say i fake to be nice to you or anyone. When i mean well, i mean it from the bottom of my heart. Unlike people who smile smile to you and poison you from behind. Christians arent saints.Labels: i say
I cheered with joy @ | Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Fuck.Whythespacingonmylastentryisn'tthere?
Damnitlah.Andiwasmerelytellingyouaboutit,
imnoteventryingtobeunreasonable.Damn.
I cheered with joy @ | Sunday, January 20, 2008
My emotions was riding on a roller coaster for the past 1 week. Only Heavenly Father will understand me. He know why when i cried softly to myself. He knows all my thoughts, right down to my darkest secrets that no one knew. -sigh-
Yes, im already feeling so so much better.
Saw this shirt at This Fashion, while waiting for Bebe. I thought it was damn funny, so i took a picture and send it to Justin. lols.
Went Chinatown in the afternoon, planning to get some new year atmosphere. It was still bright and sunny when i reach there. But it started to rain heavily when Bebe reached. So sad lah! Spoiler lor. Then went AMK Hub for window shopping, movie and dinner. Cloverfield doesnt make any sense to me. No ending de lor. Wth. Dinner was yummylicious! Goodness, it had been months ago since we ordered so much food man!
Goodness, i dint know my phone can take such a clear pic. lols.
We had satay, oyster omletter, yong tou foo, fish n' chips + a can of tiger beer! lols. So good lah! Bebe was nice enough to satisfy all my craving for these food. heh. That's because i've been bugging him with all my sudden food cravings. haha.
Actually i love food. Its just that i cant finish everything i ordered. Perhaps because of the years that i was not feeling well.. thus at times i do dislike food and eating. Yadah yadah.. And i always have sudden craving for food which pops out from nowhere. ah ha~
p/s: Bebe, 7 months! =D
Labels: happy gurl
I cheered with joy @ | Sunday, January 20, 2008
我很讨厌自己。我觉得我很没有用。什么都做不好。一点点小事都做不好。为什么我那么容易生病？开始对我的生命感到厌倦。有没有人可以带我离开这个讨人厌的地方？我很不开心。我不喜欢这里，更不喜欢那些批评我和我家人的乌龟s。就为什么没有人可以体谅我呢？不要再逼我了啦。。我真的快倒了。
不想看到那些虚伪恶心的大便。你们就绕了我，不要再烦我好吗？
可能我太自卑了吧？
很累喔。。
父上帝，带我回家好吗？Labels: 力不从心
I cheered with joy @ | Monday, January 14, 2008
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Bebe already left for his out field trip this morning. Woke up in the wee hours to sms. A simple msg means alot for both of us. At least, it's enough for me to kill time for the next few days. heh. *******I really detest the thought of her in my house. Alamka can you please go home? When they talked to you, doesn't mean that they dont have anything against you. Just that everyone is trying to fake it. But no way. Im very true towards my emotions. (That's why im always in deep shit) Dont give me the shit that your workplace is very far from your home. Okay, i understand that you need like 1 hour (?) to travel.. So am i hor. I take about 1hours 15 mins to school everyday lor. And i definitely sleep later than you do. Thought you should expect all these when you interview for the job? Crap. Sometimes i really feel sorry for you. Because of all the craps you go through. Im sure you dont deserve them. But since you choose him then thats it. At times i really dont mean to be rude, but.. ah whatever lah. Who cares if you're reading man.=D Gotta run and fetch mummy from the airport !
Labels: whatever
I cheered with joy @ | Saturday, January 12, 2008
=D Ah ha its already friday! And for no reason i keep thinking that today is only thursday. zzz and i was trying to rush home and do the laundry. Because i thought i dint have uniform to wear. lols. Oh.. mommy is coming home tml night! Yeahness lah! I heard that she brought a blanket for me. Sounds funny to me luh. Whatever. No wait, i cant imagine how much the cab fare would cost. Airport surcharge + midnight charge + recent increase of meter fare.. Faints lah~
Anyway, Bebe gonna be away for out field (again) for 4 long days tml. Boohoo~ I pray that he will be back safe and sound. Guess you guys cant imagine how i felt when he asked me to pray for him. C'mon darling, you've always been in my daily prayers alright? I really do hope that he would be able to experience God's love through his tough training sessions. Gotta pray for miracle uh? hmmm..
Im not sure why.. but im still not feeling good about e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g. Everything seems so dull. Can anyone tell me why? -sigh- Am still deciding whether to change my bloggie link. Does anyone bother to read anyway? Crap.
I think im fat.
blah~
I cheered with joy @ | Friday, January 11, 2008
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Freshies orientation finally over. Initially they were a fun bunch to to mix around with. Not until today.. i think i needa reconsider the statement. Yes, fun. But they're after all, young teenagers. Respect doesn't seems to be in them. -sigh-=) Saw Shi ting and Shuo ke this morning. Good good.. heh. Met up with Bebe this afternoon for movie, I am Legend. =) ichiban! lols. I held his hands tight, and scared him with my useless guts, throughout the movie! haha. If he could, i think he would want to wallop me up man. bleah~I cried like thrice today? First time was when i couldn't stand them laughing at her.. My heart broke.. Ouch.Second time was during the movie, when Will Smith die in the movie..Third time was on the train with Bebe. Of all a sudden 很舍不得他。我很担心他不会照顾自己呀。=( sobs. Byebye to Bebe until 19 jan 08. boohoo~ misses!Labels: Bebe and misses
I cheered with joy @ | Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Freshies orientation.Dint slept very well last night. Was busy tossing and turning, hoping for my phone to ring. Well actually it did. It was from this XX friend, who smsed me "happy new year.." at 3+am. I so want to take my shoe and throw at him. And i eventually gave up and woke up at 5.30am to daze. urgh~
I guess it must be me, away from school (mc + holidays) for too long. Thus this morning, i was abit lost when i saw the crowd. I thought the usual 7am crowd was bad enough. But when i took train today at 6.30am, the crowd was
terrible + horrible + vegetable. lols. All damn kiasu. Only want to stand near the door, alight fast fast. wth
My new class is still doing fine.. But at the rate im going, i probably gonna lose my voice. lols.
Oh i went to the doctor already. =) Nothing much lah, just the usual case. heh.
Labels: Greenies
I cheered with joy @ | Monday, January 07, 2008
No idea what went wrong.. Im just feeling so emotional. I need a rant. Its only begining of the year, and im feeling so restless about E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G. I dont want school. I dont want my routine household chores, when noone bothers. I dont want to cook. I dont want last minute dates. I dont want last mintue works. I dont my ugly mess. I want nuts. Call me lazy or mad. I dont care. Stop asking me why am i like that. I am like that, what can you do? Stop pin pointing fingers at whoever you think are at fault. Why bother to ask how am i doing only when im down, when all you care is yourself and your own life. WTF. I think in either ways, i suck.Where were you when i fell?Labels: Noone's gurl
I cheered with joy @ | Friday, January 04, 2008
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Goodness. School gonna start and i've yet to work brush up on my work. Im so going to drop dead man. And i just received an order to sleep early, starting from tonight. Wth. Well.. if time allows, we shall see how lah. Bleah~
Oh oh my new year resolutions! Well after much personal recap, i think 07 was huge leap. But nope, im not going to dwell in it. I wanna move on. Everyone should, right? lols.
1) A better daughter, sister, girlfriend, student, friend.
2) Time management!
3) Adpot a healthier lifestyle (?)
4) NO weight gaining, please.
Alright, not too much at a time. Im afraid i wont be able achive them all.. Then on 31.12.08, you will hear me complaining again. lols.
As and when you think i havent been doing much about them, please slap me lightly on my back. haha.
Labels: 2008 resolutions
I cheered with joy @ | Thursday, January 03, 2008
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
Happy new year! Gonna start the year right man. Ah ha time for serious work..=) pple, have a blessed year ahead.Oh, that passerby might possibly be one of his jealous fans. That's why.. Blah~Labels: 01.01.08
I cheered with joy @ | Tuesday, January 01, 2008
