The Blessed One

Monday, December 31, 2007

Last entry of the year..

before we step into 2008..

Actually i've got nuts to blog about.. i merely want the date on my entry lah. lols. Alright, say farewell to 2007 as we embrace ourselves for the new year. Rmb to leave all your '07 baggages behind! =D

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I cheered with joy @ | Monday, December 31, 2007

Sunday, December 30, 2007

In my opinion...

Should your boyfriend or girlfriend gets mad at you in the public for whatever reasons.. I THINK, neither each party should use any offensive language to display your unhappiness towards each other, esp in front of your friends. I understand that sometimes in the heat of the moment, you just need a right word to describe your feelings.. but say NO to those offensive languages yah? Yes, you might not mean it. But its often words like these that hurts most. What more when its in front of your friends or his friends. Like oh my goodness right? lols. Well.. if you ask me what would i do if i ever did that on my boyfriend.. Hmmm i would simply wait till i cool down and apologise to my boyfriend and his friends, in front of his friends. By doing so, is only showing due respect for him. If someone ever question but why apologise to his friends too.. My point is, at least they know i dint mean it on purpose and i acknowledege the fact that i did a thing like that.. Perhaps you might think its not necessary, but you never know what wonders it brings.

Just allow me to quote my imagnative example:

Boyfriend and girlfriend are mad at each other and refuse to give in.. Girlfriend said something nonsensical and boyfriend's blood boils.. And start to hurl ugly words to his friends about the issue. Although eventually they made up.. but ever come across your mind that the hurt is already there?
What if your friends remembers the incident and everytime they see your girlfriend/boyfriend, they just remind themselves of the issue again? Surely they might minus marks right?
Yes, you might say a relationship is something personal and is only between you two.. but not when it becomes a topic for others.

Ah.. i was just trying to come up with a scenario for my topic. It was purely random thoughts of mine and its all about my opinion. Boohoo~

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HJJ is a bully leh! He always pick on vunerable people like me to bully. Very horrible right? lols.
HJJ The Countdown begins says:
u wont even get to share the leftovers

suck thumb - so be it. says:
ah pls

suck thumb - so be it. says:
im not the least bit of interested with ur leftovers

suck thumb - so be it. says:
blah

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
ah then good

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
dont share lor ahaha

suck thumb - so be it. says:
humph

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
u not interested wad

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
good

suck thumb - so be it. says:
u horiible

suck thumb - so be it. says:
horrible*

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
ya, u dont know meh?

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
wahahahah

suck thumb - so be it. says:
haha

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
~HAHA

suck thumb - so be it. says:
HUMPH

suck thumb - so be it. says:
u bully!

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
yeah

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
u poor victim

suck thumb - so be it. says:
haha

suck thumb - so be it. says:
let me post it on my blog

suck thumb - so be it. says:
lols

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
....

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
good good

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
post let the whole world see

suck thumb - so be it. says:
yes lah, i make sure the whole world knows!

suck thumb - so be it. says:
lols

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
good

HJJ The Countdown begins says:
faster go and post now

-_-" Oh, he's not my boyfriend. He's currently happily attached to another happy-go-lucky-gurl. haha.

p/s: my boyfriend is definitely not as mean as him lor. lols.
Labels: random thoughts

I cheered with joy @ | Sunday, December 30, 2007

Friday, December 28, 2007

Ever tried staying awake the whole night, just to wait for some one's sms? I did. Call me dumb or anything. But i really did. Fancy to stay awake the night, waiting for his sms and sob a lil 6+ in the morning. I wished i had just given him a call man. urgh~ =) Nvm, we gonna sms call and meet again on 31st Dec.

Damn. My blood must be super sweet.. I got like 5 kisses from some ugly mosquitoes. Faints~

Phone gonna be dead quiet for the next 3 days. -sigh-
Labels: slience

I cheered with joy @ | Friday, December 28, 2007

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Couldnt get any quality rest ysd night. Was tossing and turning on my snoopy bed, hugging my marshmellow poohie. Was so bad that i smsed him, even though i know he wont reply till this morning.. My mind was in a total blank. Perhaps only God knows.

Pratically dragged myself out of bed this morning when the alarm went off. I even steal some time for mac breakfast, alone. The bus journey seems to take forever. And i was goodly late for 35mins? Whatever. 30 mins for registration, 30 mins for doctor availabilty, 10 mins in the room, 30mins for urine test, 30mins for payment. Like WOW! !@#$ But doctor dint say much. Only asked me to be back for appointment and scan in 1 month's time. How effective uh? Im still not feeling good. Something is so wrong.. urgh~

Enough blogging abt that horrible person in my life. He dont deserve to be mentioned on my blog! Blah~

Oh a tiny winy lizard(!) just fell from the celling, onto your's truly arm. WTH man. This freaky lizard must be dont know how to write die (direct translation to chinese). lols. Yupp yupp.. i shake it off my arm and step it with my mama's home slippers. And its on its back, struggling.. Must use +dettol disinfectant to scrub my arm man. bleah~

-sigh- misses!
Labels: restless

I cheered with joy @ | Thursday, December 27, 2007

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Feeling so miserable. Spending too much time at home, alone, is bad for physical and mental health. Because you tend to think way too much.. And how come my brain doesnt work that well during exams or projects? It always focusing way too much on negaitve things. Like everything gonna happen for a bad cause. Something is so wrong uh?

I think there's something very wrong with myself.. I cant seems to find that tad bit of self confidence. Im feeling way too lousy abt myself. I wonder if im still capable of handling things assigned to me.

MDIS Eunos campus called this afternoon, and ask me to go for a interview tml. I dint even register myself or aything. How on earth will others know im looking for a part time? Is it God's work? Perhaps..

Tml im gg to the doctor. And tml he's gg for a 4 day outfield trip. Mama not in sg. Hopefully my sister will be willing to go with me. I dont know what to expect at the clinic..

Daddy, wont You give me that courage to face it?

Can you sense that kind of fear in me? I wish i can escape..
Labels: sweet escape

I cheered with joy @ | Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

=D MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Let us all bear in mind that we're celebrating Christmas all because of Jesus Christ!

Ah the joy of giving.. SUPER. I love those presents. ;D

Have a blessed Christmas.

loves!
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I cheered with joy @ | Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Not fair.

I like, i buy. You wear, spoil = dont need to pay.

You ask, i buy. Lost = dont need to pay.

You ask, i lend. Not happy = dont need to pay.

I like, i buy. You like, you took it = dont need to pay.

Your shit, we clear. Not happy = dont pay up and still expect us to con't clear your shit.

I talked, you forget = my fault.

I not happy, i shout = unreasonable.

wtf is wrong with everyone?
Labels: Not fair

I cheered with joy @ | Saturday, December 22, 2007

Friend, it's okay.

No more sweet whisperings, only words that hurts.

Then be it lor.

Cheers alright?
Labels: sweet lies

I cheered with joy @ | Saturday, December 22, 2007

Friday, December 21, 2007

("v") 6 months!

=D im an extremely happy gurl.
Labels: happy gurl

I cheered with joy @ | Friday, December 21, 2007

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Matthew 6:34 (NIV)
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
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I cheered with joy @ | Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Monday, December 17, 2007

Tired of everything. Feeling so lost, cold and lonely. I only want to rest in His strong loving arms. Can?

Im scared.

I worry for my health. I hope red light is not on yet.

I worry that *he's up to something naughty..

I worry that *she really need to undergo a surgery..

I worry that *she's not getting enough rest..

I worry that my savings might not meet the month's end..

I worry that i cant complete my project nicely on time.

I worry that i cant cope with everything that's happening.

I dont like all these shit.

Why must i bother to make those ugly calls when you dont even bother. Why must we think of how to clear up your shit when you dont even care. You bloody think we really owe it to you? Yeah, dream on okay.

You. You forgot my chocolates and my hugs. :(

All i want for Christmas is :

TLC,
hugs,
kisses,
chocolates,
poohs,
and more hugs ..

I cheered with joy @ | Monday, December 17, 2007

Friday, December 14, 2007

Tired of waiting..
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I cheered with joy @ | Friday, December 14, 2007

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Tired~ The pain is simply too horrible for me to bear. I cant even stand for long, let alone to walk for a few minutes without anyone to hold on. Painkillers aren't working that good for me. It is always giving me severe gastric pain. Sometimes i thought im gg to drop dead any moment.

Daddy, wont You take the pain away? *cries*

Random thoughts:

5 or 10 years down the road, i doubt i can be that someone successful; which i always dream of. All because of pple like you and you. I feel so embarrassed to even acknowledge you. You're a man of no backbones, irresponsible, not trusthworthy .. you're everything anyone can say. Noone feels good to put someone down on purpose, with anger jealousy or hatred. But it seems like you're always proving others right. I dont mean to.. but sorry to say, this is the kind of impression you gave me. Im afraid you dont deserve that kind of trust and help from us. On second thought, if we dont then who will? What more do you expect?
Labels: Pain

I cheered with joy @ | Thursday, December 13, 2007

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Thanks to Jo, for helping out with the skin. I think im rather helpless with changing my blogskins recently. lols.

Yes, i used this skin sometime ago.. I simply like it okay.

Yes, i guess right now what i need most is strength to carry on with the battle. I wish i have more courage to face it. The pain is simply unbearable. I hope i wont die of losing excessive --- .

And yes, i wish i have the courage to let you go.. but

Daddy, cant You hear my cries?
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I cheered with joy @ | Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Monday, December 10, 2007

Went to the doctor this morning. No verdict out yet. Just tablets and more tablets to pop in. Well.. pray its not something bad. U'know i feel so stressed up with the whole issue. Not only to worry for my health, but im scared that i will face all this shit alone.
Ah no point for me to whine about it here.

Though you said you wont leave me.. but still im scared. Im afraid that i will have to go through this shit alone. You sense that kind of fear in me?
Labels: fear

I cheered with joy @ | Monday, December 10, 2007

Sunday, December 09, 2007

Random -- I hate RED!

I've got no choice. Whenever situations like this pops out.. i seems to lose my capabilty to speak my mind out. Perhaps its only through this channel, then i can communicate better with you. Sounds so lan uh?

U'know, first look from you.. i already read your mind. Yes, i can understand that kind of fear in you. So do i sense the fear okay. I know you're as worried as i am (pls dont prove me wrong). Worse was when your eyes speaks to my heart. Like if its a bad thing, you gonna leave me for sure. Did anyone ever tell your that your eyes can speak? If dont, let me be the first.

And i asked you thrice before i walked out of the room. I ask if you were scared? You dint even bother to lift your head up and look at me, like you always do. Perhaps my qns was really indeed hard to answer at the moment or you're simply trying to avoid my eyes. Be it. I choose to think that i was unreasonable wretch, forcing you to answer my qns - if that makes you feel any better.

Yet you asked me what's on mind.. Yadah yadah.. that moment i really thought i would have the courage and walked out of your sight. You ought to know better than anyone else that i was scared that you would dump me for sure. Though you said you wont.. but your eyes seems to be telling a different story. Trust me, im a gurl. I dont lie.

Promises? Dont ask why i dint managed to honour it (neither did i break it). Ask yourself. You did? I hate it when you say you dont know what's on my mind. C'mon.. for so long already and that's what you can say? That really upsets me. Not that you're not good enough.. but dont you find it abit ridiculous? And then you will say i never allow you to step into my world even though you tried to. Tried hard enough?

I really wonder.. just is it me or you, whose too hard to catch?

Im sorry but i dont mean to sound bad. I was merely typing things out.
Labels: Hate RED

I cheered with joy @ | Sunday, December 09, 2007

Weekends.. but everything went haywired.

Rest and recovered from thursday's incident. Ah she's not to be blamed. I was at fault for not printing my budget list out.

Missed school on friday. But that didnt stop me from going for my (!) first pubbing session. lols. And NO, i dint fake my illness on thusday okay. Was quite reluctant to go along in the first place. Because i was afraid that it might be a too troublesome for him to send me home later.. Anyway i gave in lah, so just went for it. =D
Went to Music Heritage with the group. Felt abit out of place lah.. Dont ask me why but yadah yadah. Not sure what made me so hyper active that night, though i dint drink much. I guess its the people there uh? Initially i was rather shy to play games with them or even to sing openly. Must be the Chivas.. lols.
Hmmm.. there will definitely more of such activities to come. heh.

I burned my saturday doing something i thought it was worth my time, even when im having a really bad gastric pain.. I dint complained or grumble about anything. But it seems like im still not understanding enough. Am i supposed to run after you and plead you to forget about it? Im not trying to be mean.. but it seems like its all my fault. You did it straight in my face and right down into my heart.. my fault to cause your uproar?

Why not you tell me what more do you want from me?

I cheered with joy @ | Sunday, December 09, 2007

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Boy. Its already December. Time not only flies, it runs! lols. Looking back.. i wonder what have i been doing and did i really achieved my goals..

Earlier this year, i was still a Nitec student, doing Office skills. Now im a Higher Nitec student, doing Event Management. Ah ha to me, it was a big leap. Nevertheless, im not the same gurl whom you know. We all grow as time passes by. Im not sure if i've grown to stronger or worse than before. I only know without Him, im just a lump of mouldy mud. Since young, i already understood why God place rocks along our way. It only like this, then can we learn.
Like Friend said: all things happen for a reason. But what's the reason behind it all? My ans: ask God. And in time to come, you will know why even without Him telling you.

What about you? What have you done for the past 11 months?

I cheered with joy @ | Wednesday, December 05, 2007

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Im suppose to work on my EPL project for submission tml. But but i cant seems to concentrate on my work. Besides feeling restless.. i've got no clues what to add in for my proposal. Of all a sudden im feeling so emo. I so wanna cry.. Damn what's wrong with me man? Someone slap me on my forehead can? Boo hoo~

These 2 days my phone is so so quiet.

When will he be back? Im alr missing him loads!!

I cheered with joy @ | Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Monday, December 03, 2007

In serious sleep debt. Cant wait to pay off all my debts when holiday comes. I can simply fall asleep within the snap of fingers.
Projects, day dreaming, endless chit chat sessions with mama and retail therapy treatments are the main culprits. Excluding all the other acomplice.

Ah whatever.

Feels weird to talk to him after so long.. The draggy cold war has also put quite a number of them into a difficult position. -sigh- As if i like all these shit. If only he buck up.. hmmm it probably wont happen.

Anw, im feeling super fed up with him. Cant believe that i actually know such a bloody basket , who have got a foul mouth like the rubbish dump. I doubt he even got a pea brain okay. If only you heard what he said to me.. Bet your blood will boil too. !@#$%

Oh when will payday come?

Boo~ loads of misses.. Cant wait till weekend comes!

I cheered with joy @ | Monday, December 03, 2007

Sunday, December 02, 2007

=) Marketing project down. Only left marketing presentation, BZC presentation & EPL project on hand. Still got quite alot hor? Sians.

Had a great day out. Went to take (!) neoprints, shopping, dinner then movie. heh. Had quite a number of first time today. Mind you, all healthy ones okay.

But we dint had a happy ending.. Just a sentence and we fall into it.

It was all about trusting and caring for one another. -sigh-

What's next?

*cries*

Perhaps we dint had had a great day afterall.

I cheered with joy @ | Sunday, December 02, 2007